I think it's safe to say that you're definitely not alone in feeling this way. A lot of people feel that they're failing or falling behind when they compare themselves to other people there age. But honestly, I wouldn't worry about it.
There's so much to say here, really.
Some people start college too young before they really know what they want to do, or just go because they feel that they should. A lot of people will complete their degree and decide to go in a completely different career direction, or start college all over again. You'll find people in college from 17 years old to 50 +. There's no right time to go to college and no right thing to do in this situation.
Also, just because someone has been to / is at college doesn't mean in any way that they've somehow accomplished more than you or are doing better in their life.
What is it that you want to do at college? What do you want to study?
Also, about feeling like a 'freak'...anybody who thinks of you that way, or projects negative feelings like that onto you is insecure with themselves. When people label others or judge them in that way, it says so much more about the person casting judgement than the person being judged. You're confident enough to have your own style, and dress your own way even if other people don't like or understand it. Don't let anyone else take your individuality away from you. You'll meet all sorts of people in the world, including at college. You'll meet people like you, people completely opposite from you and everything in between. You just have to find people who accept you for who you are and who really love and care about you. That's where your place is.
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