I'm feeling anxious about death right now, I can't wait for it to happen, it's like before a big moment where you get butterflies thinking about it, I'm excited to do it, only 2 more months then I can embrace oblivion
Take me away, I just want out from this self-imprisoned self-made Hell. Don't be surprsed, this is your mind coming to life by self-sacrifice. This tragedy of death will walk hand in hand with every thought of regret. Blame yourself for what you've become. The mind is a powerful thing set to self-destruct.
~I, Dementia - Whitechapel~
Take me away, I just want out from this self-imprisoned self-made Hell. Don't be surprsed, this is your mind coming to life by self-sacrifice. This tragedy of death will walk hand in hand with every thought of regret. Blame yourself for what you've become. The mind is a powerful thing set to self-destruct.
~I, Dementia - Whitechapel~
But you are anxious about it, therefore you are having doubts.
If you are having any doubts about suicide, or second-thoughts, then now is not the right time to do it.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
Take me away, I just want out from this self-imprisoned self-made Hell. Don't be surprsed, this is your mind coming to life by self-sacrifice. This tragedy of death will walk hand in hand with every thought of regret. Blame yourself for what you've become. The mind is a powerful thing set to self-destruct.
~I, Dementia - Whitechapel~
Just wondering what you wanted from this thread? Was it support or something else? I know the idea of death can seem like it will solve things but it won't. Things can get better. Take care
Kat xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
I feel like by writing this thread you are, somewhere in your mind, reaching out and wanting help. Perhaps wanting somebody to stop you or convince you not to do it, because you know that death will not solve your problems but cause more for everyone around you or has ever come in to contact with you. It will be especially painful and destroy those closest to you, whether that be your friends, family or anyone else. It will also cause yourself a lot of problems if you are found, which is extremely likely.
Do you have any professional help right now? Psych / therapist ?
Do you want to talk about what has brought you to this point?
I'm sure you've heard this many times, but suicide is never the answer. No matter what your problems are, there is so much out there that can and will help. Please think about this <3
Please don't think that way... I have been through it, I planned my suicide and attempted it before... trust me things do get better and it's not worth it... death doesn't solve anything and if anything you have a life to live that is worth something whether you think it is or not. We're all here for you.
Easy for those who have something redeeming about them
Take me away, I just want out from this self-imprisoned self-made Hell. Don't be surprsed, this is your mind coming to life by self-sacrifice. This tragedy of death will walk hand in hand with every thought of regret. Blame yourself for what you've become. The mind is a powerful thing set to self-destruct.
~I, Dementia - Whitechapel~
Often when our self-esteem is low it can be hard to see any reedeeming qualities but I am sure if we asked someone else they would say you do have some. What would make life better/more bearable for you?
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
don't do it, simply because you can't look back and change things.
please reach out for help
call your crisis line, talk to a professional, even if you're not convinced it's going to help, stall yourself until you get some proper help.
if it comes down to it, PM me if you need anything at all.
sending hugs and hope x
