You can also email the supporters (
support@recoveryourlife.com) if you want to talk but not post on the forums. You won't be judged.
Do you think there's anything that might help you get to that point? Perhaps trying to reach out, whether that's here or to someone in person would make a difference. Also keep trying to find healthy ways of coping.. writing, walking, a hobby, whatever makes you feel a little better really.
Look after yourself, I hope things improve soon.