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First off, I just want to say that I'm very impressed that at barely 14, you have a sophisticated enough understanding of yourself and your emotions to even recognize, let alone articulate what you're experiencing. For that matter, I'm ask fairly impressed that you can even tell your anxious without the physiological signs -- at 25 (almost 26), I still have trouble with that -- more often that not, I'll only be able to identify what I'm feeling as anxiety because I notice that my heart rate is elevated, my hands are sweating, I'm fidgeting more than usual, and so on, and conclude that I must be anxious.
Moving on though, before I say anything else, I want to make very clear that I am NOT a doctor, and while I tend to be pretty good at sounding like I know what I'm talking about (four years of university has this effect -- I have a lot of practice BS-ing my way through exams and such), I'm in no way qualified to evaluate any possible side effects or anything else to do with medication. If you're worried about it, you should talk to your doctor about it. The most that I, or anyone on RYL (even those who do have various medical qualifications -- they'd need to examine you in person to give you any definitive answers), can do is to support you and help you deal with emotional distress resulting from your experiences (or anything else for that matter).
But that said, it sounds to me like the most likely thing is that the medication is helping, and the reduced physical reactions you're experience are because the anxiety isn't as severe, and isn't producing as severe physical effects as you're used to. The thing is, once you notice that, and start thinking about it, that can make it worse, basically through a placebo effect (when you feel a certain way because you expected to feel that way, even though there was no external cause... not sure if you already knew that -- from your writing it seems like you very well might, but since so few people your age would, I figured I'd explain anyway, just in case), as you start to expect that you won't feel the physical reactions you're used to, even if you're not aware of expecting that. Alternatively, it might be that you expect to feel anxious in a particular situation, and don't because the medication is helping, so you don't have the physical indications, but you still *think* you're feeling anxious because you expect to.
I've personally never experienced what you described, and I've been on antidepressants for several years now, first sertraline, then Lexapro (don't remember the generic name for that -- personally, I'm impressed you remembered and could spell sertraline -- I always just call it Zoloft even though it's been a generic for ages now), and have never experience what you've described. But besides that that's just one case and doesn't mean anything at all, I think that honestly, if I did experience something like that, I likely wouldn't even know about it, as I'd probably not even know I was feeling anxious at all without the physical symptoms, even though I'd likely still act to avoid whatever I was anxious about despite not knowing I was anxious. And since you seem to have considerably more awareness of your emotions than I do, I think that the relevance of my experience here is pretty limited anyway.
As far as you being on the young side to take it... my understanding is that sertraline is approved for ages 6 and up, so in that regard, you're plenty old enough. But at the same time, it was approved for adults (18 and up) long before it was approved for children and adolescents, which happened relatively recently, so there's likely more data on its efficacy with adults than with young people. I think that before that, there was only one SSRI that was approved for children and young teens (I think it as Prozac, but definitely check with your doctor if it's something you want to pursue), and there might be more data about that with people your age (simply because it's had more time to collect such data), so if you're worried about it, it might be worth looking into. But based on my extremely limited knowledge of the medical issues, I'm inclined to say that probably hormones are the biggest biological factor in age-dependent effects for adolescents, if you're reasonably well into puberty (you started your period at least a year or two ago, and have been getting it regularly for at least a year, you have pubic hair covering most of "that area," and have significant breast development... sorry if any of that embarrassed you -- you obviously don't have to share any of that on here, it's just for your own reference, and to maybe give you a little bit more to go on and whatever) then biologically it's probably not that much different than say a 15-16 year old taking it, but if you aren't as far into puberty (haven't started your period, started within the last few months, or haven't started having it regularly every month yet, you have less or no pubic hair, and/or little or no breast development), then I'd think that biologically you're still closer to a child, and I'd be inclined to go more off of what works well with children (maybe ages 6-12) rather than with older adolescents (say, ages 15-18).
From a psychological perspective though, based on extremely limited information, I'd say you're plenty mature enough that if the biology side isn't an issue, I'd want to treat you as an older adolescent or adult rather than a child (basically, teenagers can go either way, child or adult, when there isn't anything designed specifically for teenagers, and while older teens, maybe 16-19 are likely to be closer to adults than children, with younger teens, it can be harder to decide). Based on your post here, in terms of psychology, I wouldn't hesitate to treat you as an older adolescent or adult rather than a child... but in terms of medication, there is also the biological factor, and no matter how smart, competent, and mature you may be, at your age, you may will still be biologically closer to a child than an adult.
Also, based on your post, I decided to talk to you as I would a university student or graduate... but based on your age, you shouldn't even know half the words I used, and if what I wrote was hard for you to understand, please, please, please tell me, and I'll try again in a more age-appropriate manner -- fact is, you *are* still very young, and I really wish you wouldn't be able to understand most of what I just wrote. I do remember being your age and wanting and feeling I was all grown up, but turns out being a kid is pretty awesome too... so don't waste it trying to be grown up -- if you can't keep up with something like that, please just say so and I'll fix it :)
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