Not positive it this counts but i need to get it out

bugg · 30-08-2012, 01:50 AM

So for as long as i remember my father and kids at school would call me rude things and at first i just thought they were insucure and stuff and thats why they would say these things about me,but now i completely belive them and all the words are started to control my life. and im starting to think that all this is worse that being kicked and hit by my own father,I dont know how but i think it is. like the bruses will heal but i can not get those mean things out of my head....Fat lard (idk how to spell it),Ugly,Retarted(sorry if it offended you!),Stupid,Worthless..etc the list can go on and on. and im starting to belive EVERY bit of it. im SOO insucure now,like i always have to have a jacket,or in my house a blanket around me. and im always holding my belly to cover it. and now my new step brothers and bestie are trying to convince me i look fine and that im too small and their worried (i dont have an ED tho...i eat too much) and i just dont belive them. like i know that they are obligated to say that and i jsut wish they would stop saying it because it bugs me soo bad that they wont drop it and stick to the truth!

Im sorry this is so long,but thanks for reading. I dont know if this counts as bullied or anything but I figued it fit better here than any other fourm. YOu can tell me if it is in the wrong spot and i can find a way to take it down i think.

crazykat · 30-08-2012, 02:00 AM

It is definitely emotional abuse and what they did was wrong. Emotional abuse can do just as much damage as any other abuse and is just as valid. Have you thought about getting some counselling for what you went through? Take care
Kat xxx

bugg · 30-08-2012, 07:09 AM

Yes and I went for like 5 or 6 weeks. But then she says I need to go see a phsicoligist instead. And I havnt gone for almost 3 weeks becauae of a stubborn father.