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Falling apart...AGAIN :'(
I just got out of rehab a month ago and its already falling apart. I just got back into school. I'm a freshman now, and i dont even know how to deal with it. The social anxiety of having to deal with the B.S of highschool and people is already making me have panic attacks. Some of the worst ones ive had in awhile. There are little kids in the house now because i moved away from my moms to my dads and im not used to 6 and 7 year olds whining crying and complaing 24/7. im trying to stay calm. But it feels like im having to help and accompany other people more then myself . And i DO NOT REPEAT DO NOT WANT TO DO HIGHSCHOOL. I cannot deal with that right now.And now my dad wont even help me get different options. he wont even compromise. Hes trying to make everyone else comfy cosy but his own son. What BS IS THAT?!?!?! I mean when is it going to be my turn to be happy again. Its been so many years of hell and depression that idk what even to do. And I just want to be happy again. And it doesnt seem like thts happening. It feels like im just dyeing slowly again. AND OMG DO I WANT TO CUT!!!!
I dont knw what im trying to get out of this post.
Some help a hug? Maybe a lil advice?
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