:(

[Gem-Louise]

cant stop ...urgers too bad im trying to distract myself and i just cant stop thinking about hurting myself :( i deserve it

[Serendipity.]

I'm sorry you're struggling so much tonight. Is there anything causing you to feel so bad? What makes you think you deserve to hurt yourself? I don't think that anyone deserves that. Sometimes, even if it's difficult, the most helpful thing can be to treat yourself differently to how you feel - with care and compassion.

It's great that you're trying to distract yourself. If you're still struggling, maybe you could have a look at the distraction list and work through some different ideas. I know it's really difficult, but I find that distractions work best if I can already accept that they aren't going to make the thoughts go away entirely, that yes it will be uncomfortable but they will ease and I don't have to act on them. Keep talking here, look after yourself.

[Gem-Louise]

im just tired of voices...seeing things...family....my mood swings it all its all too much im trying so hard to stay on track but im failing

[Serendipity.]

That is a lot to be dealing with, it's totally understandable that you're finding it hard. Would it help at all to talk more about what's going on with your family or anything? What kind of help do you have at the moment?

You're not failing. I know it can feel that way but, you're trying. That is fantastic and all anyone could ask. You should be proud of yourself for that.

[Gem-Louise]

just feel lke giving up right now i cant do it anymore :(

[Gem-Louise]

couldnt even go one day without hurting myself and now my arms are a mess :(

[Stellata]

It looks like you're not sleeping great at all. I understand how draining, frustrating and lonely that can be. Especially including all those things going through your head that seem to prevent you from relaxing enough to sleep.