Lustral made things worse.

[angels touch]

Hi.
I was recently put on Lustral for Cyclothymia (a version of bipolar disorder) but only took for four days due to side effects such as suicidal thoughts, and although I was hesitant I had hoped my mood swings would settle.
Although my hypomania has now completely gone, I am left feeling worse than ever as I am back to how I felt two years ago when I had clinical depression. I just feel that all of my past progress was for nothing. And that I am going to be stuck like this. I just want to feel normal again but I would rather have mood swings than this hopelessness.
I have lost interest in nearly everything, and was wondering if anyone else has had a similar issue with medication and would be able to offer advice on either a different kind of medication, or self-help, or even simply how to take care of yourself more while waiting for help from doctors...
Thanks everyone.
Love you.

[Tig]

Hey lovely,

I'm sorry things are so bad for you right now.

Sometimes with anti-depressants they can initially make things worse, especially in the first two weeks. I had extreme suicidal thoughts & low mood with Trazadone but when those particular side effects passed, it was actually the best medication for me in terms of my mood. Have you spoken to your Dr about your recent experience with the medication? It may be that they advise you to keep taking it but monitor you closely because it is honestly quite often the case that these thoughts do increase but then decrease, although not always because I had a reaction to citalopram that didn't stop at all.

I promise you that your past progress won't be for nothing. Right now things are very difficult for you but it isn't going to stay that way forever.

Do you have any support other than from the Doctor to help you get through this horrible time?

Thinking of you xxx

[angels touch]

:) Thank you ever so much. I have booked an appointment for the 6th and I feel more able to cope now, as I have a small amount of support from friends and family and this message has given me hope so thank you. :)
I think I am going to be okay.
I hope you are well.
Hugs.
PM me anytime.
Love you.
Xxxxx