Thank you for replying. I had a really bad experience at counselling, I thought everything was going along ok, I was just starting to open up and feel more comfortable, then my counsillor basically said that he didn't know how I could be helped, that there seemed to be no reason why I feel the way I do and that really I just needed to get over myself. That's the one thing I can't get my head around, I have friends (and family if only I would let them) who are great and who stick by me, but I feel like I'm a constant disappointment, and there isn't any reason why I feel like this. I never feel good enough, about anything, and I constantly put myself down and feel like i'm not worthy to live. I've been on anti-depressants for about two years now, I had to change doctors more than once and now I just kind of let him think I'm getting along ok, because I hate sounding like a broken record all of the time. So my best friend since I was about 12 was with me through everything, the first person I trusted with everything, then it all got too much for her (which I do understand) and she cut me out of her life as much as she could (we work together part time and I'm friends with her mum), not talking or acknowledging me. The last couple of months she started being really friendly and I have no idea where I stand or how long it's all going to last. The other friend I work with, and one minute she's completely normal with me and the next it's like she hates me. I probably am being a bit sensitive but we used to be so close, and I always thought I was a good friend to her, now it's like she's not letting me be. I've got some time off work now, and I have no idea how I'm going to fill it. I feel like I've completely run out of energy and fight.
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