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Feeling impulsive
I want to dye my hair and stay up all night crafting, but i cant do non of what i want because it will make a noise and my bathroom is opisite my bedroom so i cant even do my hair. Been thinking loads today and i dont understand what im feeling. I only started on the lithium and abilify 3 days ago its unlikely that im getting a good effect from them yet. I dont know if i could say im hypomanic, i dont think i could, i do just want to treat myself to everything good because i deserve it. This is the complete oppisite to last week when i was saying how i didnt even deserve to be a mother, nor have a bath etc. i dont feel happy or stable but im in limbo to how i actually am. Ive got several calls to make tomorrow about how the cowboy workmen that have been hired by th council have left over a 2 inch gap in my kitchen window and the draft its letting in is awful, im waiting on post that i should have had a week ago. The urge to get up and leave and just go for a walk in my pj's is very stronge, its wierd theres no where particular id like to go but just walk. Scared though id walk to the bridge, im not even suicidal wha t why would i think this, confused comfisuing or what. Havent hardly any cash, i could get out a payday loan but having already done that cant do another.
Not sure what i really wan t from this post. But i just want to dye my hair red,mhave to wait till morming.
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