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Fighting and hurting
Hi, I've been back at work for a month after 4 months off with depression. Just before the return I put in a request for a change in work partner as my current partner used to come into work drunk. I did not tell anyone about this, and it was eating me up inside, this was one of the factors that I became ill.
I started work with my new partner and everyone thing was fine until 2 weeks ago. Came into work and was told that I was to return to work with my old partner or I would not be able to continue working there. I went in to see my boss about this, and that's when I had to tell him about the guy coming in drunk, it was either me or him.
The guy was suspeded the next day and is awaiting disaplinary. I had to put my allegations into writing and I have to attend an interview this week.
After a good return to work I'm now starting to struggle again. I feel that I'm the bad guy in all this, the guilt and anxiety are tearing my insides apart. I'm trying to fight it but it hurts so bad, I'm so angry with myself, really embarrest and ashamed. I just want to run away and hide.
Sorry for the long story and thanks for reading
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