I've noticed a lot of people on here struggle with dissociation too. I thought a "you know when..." thread might be helpful because sometimes I don't know I'm doing it, or if I'm dissociating or not.... and sometimes it's just damn annoying.
One I keep getting recently...
You know you're dissociating when the person you're focusing on/talking to head is shrinking and enlarging before your eyes... I think.
When you feel like you're on a flat escalator when you're walking down the street in a haze and the floor slips beneath you so fast but somehow you're balanced and steady.
You nearly get hit by cars on a regular basis walking down the street.
I thought it would be good because then we can relate to one another if other people are experiencing the same....
Time slips and slides.
I HAVE to protect/defend/attack myself. Or else.
I lose 5 seconds or so at random times.
I feel little.
People treat me like I'm invisible.
I feel little
I feel like I am invisible and no one can see me
I am unable to move or talk (once when I dissociated I was crying and couldnt even wipe the tears from my face)
I lose track of coversations happening around me
I feel heavy inside like a massive brick
sometimes being strong means not holding back the tears but letting them fall
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when you don't recognise yourself in the mirror
when time just vanishes and you have no idea where it went
when you make stuff up purely to have an account for your day
when there's a glass wall between you and everything else
Ask me mistakes I have made
Ask me whether what I have done is my life
Others have come, in their slow way -
And some have come to help, or to hurt -
Ask me what difference
Their strongest love or hate has made.
I feel little
I feel like I am invisible and no one can see me
I am unable to move or talk (once when I dissociated I was crying and couldnt even wipe the tears from my face)
I lose track of coversations happening around me
I feel heavy inside like a massive brick
yeah.
[love you.]
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
when your limbs feel prosthetic and youre cutting away but it feels like a plastic arm that isn't attached to you.
when you do something and you're a whole other person from within you.
when you're screaming and your carer asks to speak to you and you're like, "why not me, why does no-one talk to me?" - i know this because i was told afterwards, my memory is just screaming
when you're screaming and it feels like there is someone inside you getting stabbed to death but it's not you
when you feel like you're being pulled in a million directions
