I have been stuffing my emotional pain for as long as I can remember. However, in the past few years, I have been learning to get in touch with those
frightening emotions. It had come to a point recently, where I could feel the anger coming up to my throat. I knew that if I were to ever be free, I was going to have to rid myself of the anger and resentment. Well today, I screamed, cried and just plain old let loose. What a relief. I feel like a whole new person. I didn't go off on my mother, but I poured out my anger to my therapist over the phone. Who knew! Soon after, I decided that it was time for me to take back my life from my mother. So as we talked, she wanted to know where I was. I told her that I was out living my life. What a statement. I felt no guilt. I finally felt free enough to be free. To not be worrying about how she was going to feel about what I said. I always felt responsible for making her feel ok. Well, that time is over. She is my mother and I will respect her, but it is my goal to emotionally disengage from my mother. Wow...I feel great...
