Words

Japan_Freak · 30-06-2012, 05:44 AM

Hi. I've cut for a while and have recently started cutting words. Right now I have OK and STOP. I know that next time I'll write SORRY or IM SORRY if there's room. I did OK because everyone always tells me what to say and do and not say and not do and they insult me and point out every mistake. I did STOP because my dad was yelling and getting a little violent again. I'll do SORRY because well, Im sorry. Does anyone else do this, or am I the only one...?

lilmissjay · 30-06-2012, 05:56 AM

I have only done it once, but I know that there are multiple people on this site who does similar. This is off topic sort of... But are you getting any sort of help/support from people in real life? Maybe having someone to turn to and maybe even try to help you out of these bad situations that cause you to harm may help you in the long run.

Japan_Freak · 30-06-2012, 06:15 AM

I guess you could say I have support, but I don't have professional help. My best friend knows, I have a few people that I email, and the amazing people on here(:

Horizon · 30-06-2012, 10:12 AM

Yeah, I've done that before and ended up regretting it more than my usual self-harm, because people can obviously tell what it is.

I don't think it's good to be planning what you'll write next. It's not like a tattoo.

I've said it before and I'll say it again that your self-harm is escalating and you need to see a profressional to get help to stop before it gets worse.

The Stolen One · 30-06-2012, 04:22 PM

Being a bit blunt, you need to get help.
If I remember rightly you've only been cutting a couple of months. If I am right then it's clearly escalating and fast, so you really need to get some professional help and support as soon as you can - you don't want it to be getting any worse and obviously ideally you should stop.

As someone said before, think about the effects of having words scarred on you - it's really obvious. I've seen them at meets and if you want to hide scars at some point (now or future) it'll be much more difficult and I'd imagine people may be more likely to ask about words - You may find awkward to talk about/ explain

Epiphany_Addict · 01-07-2012, 05:04 PM

Just wanted to say that I've done this a few times, and that you aren't alone. I know what you mean about knowing what you'll 'write' next, as well.

I will echo what the others have said about the consequences, though. It's so much easier to be reminded of what you felt when you SHed if the result was a word than just a plain old scar, and that can be difficult to deal with.

Animad · 01-07-2012, 06:33 PM

Really, I agree with others who think you need to get professional help for this which people on here/ friend/ such aren't able to give. As well as this have you spoken to your dad about how you feel? It may be that it's worthwhile.

Really planning what you're going to write next is not a good move. It leads to you thinking that you have to do it, potentially triggers you to do it and also would be something to give you a reason to cut if ordinarily you wouldn't have one but 'want' to cut which isn't healthy. As others have said too, I'd look to the future; will you really want words scarred into you; I know I wouldn't. I did once cut a word into me and it lead to having more problems as every time I saw it it would make me angry and bring back negative emotions and would often lead to me cutting more which isn't good. Even if you don't feel like it now, it's almost definate that at some point in the future you will want to stop cutting and then will you want to feel like you have to cover up scars purely because 1 is a word. Yep, you've already got a couple which you can't turn the clock back on but do you want any more which may lead to people asking more questions in the future than if they just saw scars and there's less scope for you to give an excuse for your scars which can be the best thing to do if someone asks.