I am a 41 year old mum with 2 DS and DH. I have been suffering from Binge Eating Disorder since I was a primary school, probably around the age of 8 or 9 from looking at photos. I was a plump child and my mum put me on my first diet at 14 and I think there lies the problem! I have been on WW, SW and a few other faddy type diets and not unsurprisingly I gained weight after each of these failed. I am now about 3-4 stone overweight and have just totally given up on trying to actually lose weight, at the moment I would just be happy not putting any more on. Above all and even above the weight and body image issues, I would just like to be able to stop Binge Eating as it is seriously f**king up my life and getting in the way of work and family life. I binge eat almost every day at the moment and the emotional and financial impact is becoming serious now not to mention the health implications. Thankfully, I am no longer bulimic, so that is indeed a victory but I am still left with the Binge Eating Disorder (BED).
Love to everybody suffering out there
xxx
Last edited by squirrelspit : 26-06-2012 at 04:58 PM.
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June 22nd Well had (removed food items), all before picking up the children from school. I think if I'd had none of these things in the cupboards, I probably would have eaten anything. Bizarre exploits in the past have included ; (removed food items) .. Obviously if I were to plan a proper binge it would be going to the supermarket and straight to the confectionery aisle for (removed food items) - in some strange, malfunctioning part of my brain this makes it more of a 'balanced binge' as it's sweet and savoury. Wow, the lies that my addiction is willing to tell me in order to justify overeating eh? Anyway, going to try to cook a normal meal for kids and husband, as to whether I will eat again today, not sure but then again it is carbonara..mmmm
Last edited by squirrelspit : 26-06-2012 at 05:05 PM.
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What is the Financial Cost of Binge Eating OK, so seem to have set this blog thing up ok, had been searching for more information on binge eating, in particular the financial implications for a family amongst whom a binge eater lurks. Just how much extra money am I spending on bingey food? I recently talked to a friend about how much she spends on food per month, I said it was in excess of £1000 every month and she literally took a sharp intake of breath and looked at me with hand on chest, mouth open in shock! Needless to say, didn't fill with buckets of pride to think that I am the cause of such excessive spending and it was all going down my gullet instead of into a Disney fund :( My stick thin friend knows about my binge-eating and to some extent can relate as she binges on chocolate but then admits to cutting back, skipping meals and over-exercising to compensate. I saw another friend the next day, who also suffers from BED (Binge Eating Disorder) in my opinion and she said she only spends about 500-600 quid per month but then she is an organic, grow your own veggies, baking type of mum and is pretty thrifty in the kitchen and actually uses left-overs unlike me! Anyway, will post a bit more another time.
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Binge Eating Mum (BEM) : "morning little scales, what do you have in store for me today?"
Scales :"Why don't you step on and see??"
BEM:"But sometimes I don't like what you say to me"
Scales:"Well you won't know what I'm gonna say unless you step on?"
BEM:"Well I suppose just once today won't hurt?. . ."
Scales:"That's is my precioussss, steps on, that'sss it. . "
So, yes, my scales do seem to be channeling Gollum from Lord of the Rings and yes, it is a battle every time I enter my bathroom whether or not to weigh myself. The reading I get from that innocuous looking glass slab on the floor, can either set me up for a day of miserable food-debauchery or send me off on a pink cloud of happiness (tra la la)! Is my self-esteem so low that my daily mood can be dictated by this? It would seem so.
How do other binge eating peeps cope with this?
Last edited by squirrelspit : 26-06-2012 at 05:06 PM.
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try getting rid of the scales. just. no scales at all. its hard, but that is what i had to do to stop. and now if i see scales in the shops, i stop and look, and am even tempted to buy, but i won't do it.
When times get tough, the best we can do is remember there is better to come. If we can hold onto this hope, then hope will keep us free.
I'm sorry if I've missed the point of this post and you were asking for support but if not, I was wondering if you had considered using the journal part of RYL for posts like this? People will still be able to read and comment if you leave your journal open.
