scared. its really bad now

[freelyXfighting]

sorry for posting again. but my head is everywhere!
i see an hear things that arnt there. and last night i was really bad. i started to OD but H called an i stopped coz she went on about me leaving the girls without a mum. but then one of the people that i see started saying about taking the girls with me an i was arguing back that i wouldn't and then it turned to he told me to an he said it again earlier an i don't know what to do. i haven't told anyone what he has said but i have told my mum about seeing things and she said i need to go to hospital. I'm seeing the psych on Monday so I'm gonna tell her then.
everything feels so bad at the min. why does everything seem much bigger when you tell someone about it?
i just really don't know what to do. all the other times he has told me to do stuff i have always done it coz he doesn't give in until i do it. so I'm gonna tell the doctor about what he has said this time. coz I'm not doing that! i would rather be in hospital that do that!
please don't panic, i will call someone if it got too much. i never want to hurt anyone else an this is all just horrible an a mess.

[MandyLiv]

*massive hugs* I'm sure the psych will know what to say/do distract yourself and keep in mind that Monday is not that long. Tell yourself "almost there, just a lil' bit more and I'll be better" repetitively to decrease the fear/anxiety and motivate yourself. I find it helpful :) I'm sorry I couldn't be more of a help as I am not in the same boat so this is all I can say. You know you'll be OK :)

[freelyXfighting]

Thank you for your reply. Thinks have moved quite quickly an I've been seen an I'm going into hospital for a bit.

[88shelz]

Glad you have had help and support and hopefully the hospital stay will help you.