I'm a very lonely person, and I often think about killing myself. I don't suffer from any medical illness, so it's purely based on my loneliness & unhappiness. I'm definetely not the most miserable guy on earth, but I do feel that I deserve to die & that I will "eventually" take my life.
I don't even know where to start, I doubt I even know how to kill myself. But anyone I talk to about it, tells me things I don't want to hear & makes life sound even more gloomy. But anyway, I just want to know if thoughts of suicide are a normal occurance for most people & if they can be stopped? They're almost comforting.
I understand, I've been dealing with the same thing for quite some time <3 well it's definitely depression, are you on any medications for that? Because the right medication can help. Unfortunately, I wouldn't know though, because my psychiatrist can't seem to find a suitable medication for me -_- but I hear that they're helpful haha :P
And this is a little bit of a hypocritical speech for me to make, since I think about suicide quite frequently, but you do NOT deserve to die. I don't know you, but you seem like a lovely person. And you want help. And things can get better, I've seen it happen before. So hang in there <3
What kind of things do people tell you when you try to tell the, that make you feel worse? Hopefully I didn't just say any of those things...
But I totally understand what you mean about them being comforting too... It's very weird and hard to explain but I very much understand that.
Anyway, I'm always here if you ever need to talk about anything. Feel free to PM me anytime! <333
"I believe in running through the rain and crashing into the person you love and having your lips bleed on each other"
Its difficult to get out of a mindset like that, i know, but it is cwetainly possible if you can make an effort to get out, do things and look to the positive, easier said than done i know. But it can be done, do you have anyone you can talk to, professional or friend?
He was no longer jean valjean but no. 24601 -les miserable
Some of life's mysteries will never be solved, such as why, after spending an entire evening listenong to Bach, do I find myself humming "the birdie song".......
I am reaching, but i fall, and the stars are black and cold, as i stare into the void of a world that cannot hold- les miserables
I don't know if they can be called normal.......but they are definitely not desirable. The more intrusive they become, the more that is an indicator that you need to get help.
Suicidal thoughts are a normal for me- but from having a psychology class where the tutor asked how many people considered suicide- it is a private struggle for me. I work very hard to stay safe, and I do not consider anyone's threats of suicide a joke.
As you have indicated that other emotions are bundled up with your feelings of suicide, it does sound like you would benefit from talking to someone. It doesn't have to be about getting a medical diagnosis, but different triggers and traumas are capable of pushing persons to a tipping point.
It is better to ask for help when you still have the presence of mind to say I am having these feelings- but I do not want to have them. Happiness is possible.
So in a nutshell, you are not alone in your feelings- but no feeling suicidal is not okay. You deserve to have support.
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It reminds me of something my twin said, when we were discussing this topic - "It's okay to look, but not touch." (ie. want, but not act). I don't think "most people" think about it, but I think that among people who are depressed, it may be fairly common.
You mentioned in your first post, you think you'll act on it eventually. What makes you think that?
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
Wow, thanks so much for the replys, it's really nice of you guys.
Honestly, I don't think life sucks, I just think I would be happier dead than I am alive right now, because I live in such solitude.
People tell me stuff like "Oh just go to the libary, you'll feel much better. Or go for a drink down the bar" etc etc. Well, that wouldn't make me feel better, because I would still be lonely doing it & I don't like being alone! I love life * really enjoy peoples company, but I've been stuck in this black hole for 18 years now, and I'm so so lonely. I don't if these thoughts are a cry for help, or general thoughts. But I really do think about different ways as to how I could go, but I wouldmuch rather stay and have friends, but it's just so hard for me. There's no reason why I can't make friends, but everywhere I go people always put me down & tell me I'm insane, yet when I go to the doctors, they tell me I'm fine.
It's like I'm the one insignificant person, I know people have it much much worse than I, but I'm still unhappy & I have nobody to talk to about it. I tried councilling, but it was hell on earth, I'm not going back.
I know you've probably tried, but keep trying to meet new people, because there will be some out there who can relate to you, its just finding them. I know thats not a lot to hang on to but its true. They exist somewhere.
He was no longer jean valjean but no. 24601 -les miserable
Some of life's mysteries will never be solved, such as why, after spending an entire evening listenong to Bach, do I find myself humming "the birdie song".......
I am reaching, but i fall, and the stars are black and cold, as i stare into the void of a world that cannot hold- les miserables
I know you've probably tried, but keep trying to meet new people, because there will be some out there who can relate to you, its just finding them. I know thats not a lot to hang on to but its true. They exist somewhere.
I know, but it's been 18 years & all i've seen is trouble. There's no nice people in my area, I hate being on the waiting list. All I want is some social interaction, is that so much to ask for?
Can you try a slightly different area? And to tide you over, maybe an internet site for an interest you have, so you can talk to people, even if its not face to face? And there might be events you could travel to. What interests do you have?
He was no longer jean valjean but no. 24601 -les miserable
Some of life's mysteries will never be solved, such as why, after spending an entire evening listenong to Bach, do I find myself humming "the birdie song".......
I am reaching, but i fall, and the stars are black and cold, as i stare into the void of a world that cannot hold- les miserables
