I have a few reservations about this so I apologise if I ask a few questions of you. Firstly, I am sorry to hear that you are struggling with depression and problems to an extent that you're considering hospital. Things must be really difficult for you right now and I'm sorry to hear how much you're struggling.
I'm interested to know what sort of support you have at the moment? I know that hospital in a lot of cases can be necessary, but also it can be a very difficult and challenging place and should be considered a last resort. While it will give you a break from your life, there's many members here (myself included) who have struggled with some things more after an admission, so I encourage you to factor that into this decision.
You say you want to go into hospital for a few days or so to get away from your life and stresses; can you tell us a bit more about your stressors in your life right now?
My own personal opinion is that a rigorous inpatient treatment would not be as effective as regular therapist visits. Regular therapist visits have the advantage of keeping you in the community and as such, giving you the tools you need to help you deal with everyday life. Hosptial can provide this sort of support too but that would be more effective in long, ongoing admissions and/or well structured programs (not all hospitals provide well structured programs unfortunately). As hospital can be very confronting, it can be easier to process things with a therapist in the real world than in that setting. That is my own opinion though, and I do understand the consideration of hospital.
I understand it can be difficult to get in contact with the services that you need to provide you support - such as affording therapy. Have you looked into some local services? When I was trying to find some services I went to my GP/local doctor, a lot of people go to doctors to see if they can refer them to local groups or services, have you considered this?
Another option of service might be one that is linked in with the hospital who can assess your risk and also provide you with crisis support. I think they are called the crisis team there (depending on where you're from!) and again a doctor can link you in with them, they often come and visit you in your home and discuss your situation.
As for explaining all this to your mom, I'd say you have to be honest and say you're struggling now but looking at options that will help you get the support you need to get through it. It's difficult to talk about it sometimes, but often very comforting to have someone like a mom know and be able to help out with support.
Sorry again for all the questions. I'm not trying to say the idea of hospital is not valid, because it is, but I am also trying to suggest some other options that are worth considering for you.
Take care
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