so what next???

lozza · 21-05-2012, 09:25 AM

I was trying so hard to get my life back on track.
-using DBT skills
-going to apts
-talk about playing netball again andd socialising
-taking meds (mostly) as prescribed
-reaching out for help when needed
-not drinking (as much)
-looking for work

and for what???

-to roll my ankle twice in less than 24hrs
-have a half cast on
-be told I may need surgery
-feeling helpless and depressed cuz surgery means no netball and difficulty in finding work

I AM trying to do all the night things but losing my battle again
I just dont know what am fighting for anymore

I want to give up so badly and cut and bleed and right now I just dont care

help!

and yeh it could have been worse
but right now I feel like I've had my light and all my hope for recovery taken away...

Vanished-point · 21-05-2012, 09:31 AM

I'm sorry to hear about your misfortune but please do not neglect your own welfare when you are doing great. Sh*t like that happens.

Your recovery is on track and temporarily postponing your netball activities and job-seeking won't intervene with your other upcoming achievements.

Niniane · 21-05-2012, 03:04 PM

What happened to you is something that could happen to anyone. It's not fun, granted.
But it doesn't mean that you're loosing your battle again. You're making work to get better and it's great. But the thing is, things like that will get on your way all the time. It's life. But it doesn't mean that your recovery is compromised, even though things can be hard to deal with. It's tough, but I do believe making it through will help you on the road of your recovery.
I hope my message doesn't sound insensitive or condescending, because those are really not my intentions. I hope you'll get better.

lozza · 22-05-2012, 08:53 AM

thanks everyone

trying to be positive but its hard!!

Dying_Angel · 23-05-2012, 11:12 PM

Thinking of you! xxxx

lozza · 25-05-2012, 04:51 AM

I am so scared of not being able to play netball again. like really really scared. netball was, still is my everything.

to have that taken away would just be the worst:(

PassedExpectations · 25-05-2012, 04:31 PM

could you be a team manager while your leg is healing?