hey,
I'm thinking about suicide, not planning yet though, I think I want help but I'm not sure, though I'm writing this.
I have a rather long history of mental disorders and suicide, my diagnosis varied between depression, anxiety, and bipolar, I think I have all three and Avpd(avoidant personality)
profesional help is not availble in my city for the time being, and the near future for what it matters.
I'm on medication now, but obviously they are not efficient enough.
I'm feeling bad , I dont know how to describe it otherwise , maybe I'm draining out, or being eaten from the inside, or falling apart, idk
my wish is that I never existed, I know suicide does not fullfil that, but it is what i have.
I 've never found a meaning for life, although there are people that loves me and I love (I think, and they are only my parents and sisters) but f* them.
I'm doing a volunteer work trying to help those in need as we have a humanitarian crisis over here but f* that also there are other people helping too.
ok it is already long enogh, thx for reading
Last edited by zaprotta : 21-05-2012 at 12:23 AM.
Reason: grammer
Please PM me if you do want help. I can't make you not want to commit suicide but maybe I can talk to you and we can figure out why you feel this way. I was a cutter. I have planned my suicide more than once. But I am getting better and I want you to feel like you have someone who can maybe kinda understand. If you don't feel comfterable talking to me find somebody that you are comfterable with. I am not gonna tell you what to do. I can only ask that you please reach out for help and support and love...
