Hey there, this does sound like a really scary experience and I'm sorry you're going through this right now. As real as these experiences feel for you, try to remind yourself that they're not physically there. As much as you may feel obligated to undergo some of the things this voice tells you to do, you have the choice to say no because you have power and control over this.
I think it would be a very wise decision to open up to someone about this. I know how scary it is, but it is one of those things that you will look back on and be glad about. I had a youth worker once, and for three years I hoped he'd noticed about some of my 'issues', but I came to realise that no one is going to know unless I learn to communicate them across myself. I eventually opened up to him, and he reacted in the best possible way. Youth workers know how to deal with these situations by providing a listening ear, and to help you try and find the appropriate help. Please try not to be too scared about the prospect of talking about these feelings, because I really do think it'll help you feel better in the long run to try and so you can at least get them under control.
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