I'm sorry to hear you're struggling so much. Please try and avoid overdosing - it's not going to solve any of the problems you're going through at the moment, and may have terrible consequences also. Does your therapist know how much you're struggling now? Is there someone you could call?
Let's focus on keeping you safe for this very moment. Can you close the websites about medication interactions, put away any medication. Talk with us instead.
Could you maybe spend some time looking over art you have done? I do art too when I'm not feeling well, sometimes even just looking at art can occupy us for a while. Right now all we want to focus on is keeping you occupied and getting you through these urges.
Would it help to ring your psychologist (sorry - not sure of the time there).
I'm sorry to hear you feel horrible, but keep holding on, you can get through this.
x
I listen to my singing from singing lessons a lot. sometimes that helps. My art itself is pretty graphic. Its all art therapy reated stuff. I love art therapy.
Its 230AM here. I wish I could call and leave a message. We have a no contact in between session rule though its complicated to explain.
im watching tv now. and crying. the slightest emotional thing is setting me off.
Just wanted to let you know I'm glad you made this thread to reach out about how you're feeling. I hope, if its okay, you'll let us know how you're doing today :)
Hey, I'm so sorry you've been feeling this way. But Snow White is right, I'm so glad you've made this thread. You deserve the help and support that you need right now. Doing some art sounds like a really good idea to try and get those negative emotions out of your head and onto paper. It can validate the emotions for you without having to actually hurt yourself.
If you feel you can't wait for a therapist session, could you e-mail in?
Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world. All things can be mended. Not with time, as they say, but with intention. So go. Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally. The broken world awaits in darkness for the light that is you.
I saw my therapist today and will see her again thursday. I am not able to email her because we have a no contact in between sessions rule(except for scheduling of course) its complicated and has to do with my attachment and boundry issues.
I feel really bad right now.
I know its really creapy and stalkerish but i found a picture of my old therapist. She didnt use to have one online. I miss her so much soooo much, miss is not a strong enough word. I want to talk to her I want to call her and listen to her voicemessage I want to email her and tell her how I am and remind her about me so she doesnt forget. I know she wont reply but i want to write anyway. We also have a very strict no contact rule. SHe wanted me to have a clean goodbye since I have never really had that. So no contact. I understand why did did it that way but I miss her so babdly.
I feel horrible I want to sleep forever and never wake up. I am disapointed that the research I did on one of my meds showed that ODing on it would likely not do anything except wind me up in the hospital and having my stomach pumped. Not what I want. Being unsucesful is one of the biggest reasons why i dont try. I dont want to deal with what happens if I dont die.
You said even if you sent her an e-mail, she wouldn't read it or reply. But do you think you sending one anyway might help you feel more at ease? Only if you think it will help though. If there's any possibility of it making you feel worse if she doesn't reply, then it's best not to bother and try to look towards the future. See it as a good experience that helped you through your issues when you needed her. And try to establish a relationship similar to that with your current therapist.
Do you have any friends that you can e-mail? I'm not quite sure what time it is where you are now, but maybe you could give someone a ring, just to keep yourself busy. As tempting as the urge to OD might be right now, it isn't going to help solve any of your problems. Try to keep yourself distracted. Get some more music playing, do some more art, maybe try to write about it in a diary entry. You could even get creative and form it into a story. Anything which can help you to healthily outlet these emotions.
Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world. All things can be mended. Not with time, as they say, but with intention. So go. Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally. The broken world awaits in darkness for the light that is you.
no contact me to her or her to me. I love my current therapist as well but i still miss my old one so much, i cant believe how much its pathetic. i havnt seen her in almost 2 years.
i did email someone. i cant really talk to my friends about this stuff though. i pushed them away andnow dont have those friends.
blaaaaaaah. its 7pm here. im gonna take a nap. which is stupid cause its 7pm but im soooo tired
