They want me to go back.

[Koriandr]

I was in a horrible mood last night, and it hasn't improved today...
I'm sorry, I'm sorry for complaining and whining and just ugh.

Long story short, my parents found out that I started cutting again. Then they found my tablets under my pillow and found out about me skipping doses. They want to take away my pet chick now because they don't think I am responsible, neither do they think I am safe enough to take care of her.

They are still talking about taking me back to hospital, because their logic now is that I am too mentally unstable to have any say in my treatment. Woot, and they feel that I am dangerous and I should be watched.

But I can't handle it. I will not be able to handle it if they take my pet chick away... She's all that I have that's positive to do with myself. And if they take me back to hospital.. I just won't survive i can't go back there, I just can't.

[denyingbeauty]

I think you should explain to your parents that your chick is something positive in your life and you should be allowed to prove that you can care for it. It is something that you could use as a distraction from cutting.

If you are on medication, you should really take it because it will help. If you don't feel it is doing anything then you should see your doctor and they can change the medication or the dosage.

I know it feels like your parents are trying to rule your life, but they only want what is best for you. Just, make sure that you explain to them that going back isn't what is best for you if you are sure that it isnt.

Take care
xx

[crazykat]

I'm sorry your struggling so much hun. I agree try and explain to your parents that your chick is a positive thing in your life right now and she is what keeps you going. As for the medication it is really important for you to take the regular dose otherwise it won't work. Is there any reason why your not taking it? It's hard when we feel like our parents are taking our rights away but they only want what is best for you hun. Try and explain to them why you don't think hospital would work. Also it might help convince them if you can come up with a safety plan, like things you can do to help keep yourself safe. Take care
Kat xxx