Trouble dealing with voices

[Niniane]

Hi,

My voices had stopped for a few days in hospital. Don't ask me why, I have no idea. They started again, making me feel paranoid, like people are following me or want to kill me in the subway. They basically impose images on me, generally of me being murdered by other people.
They're driving me mad, my doc won't do anything about it since they don't really calm down with meds. I'm scared going out on the street, I'm scared of what will happen if they get a complete control of me again. I don't know what to do anymore. Right now I keep them in check by always watching/hearing video. But the others coping method failed after a while, so I can assume it will be the same with that one.

[Poppet6]

Keep telling yourself over and over again that they're not real, can you listen to your MP3 player when you're in the subway, does that help you?

How about if you go out with someone you trust?

[rara avis]

Niniane,
I'm sorry you are struggling with voices. I have schizophrenia and I hear them too. It can be so incapacitating I know. I'm not keen on meds right now, but what have you tried in the past?
Listening to music helps me, do you use music when it gets back?
Oly here suggested I write a logic list of all the reasons what you are hearing aren't true, as well as the beliefs that you will get hurt/murdered. It might help to have that to look at.
Sorry I'm not much help, and I'm sorry you are struggling with this,
Alex

[Niniane]

Thank you both for answering, it means a lot to me and it's a real help.

Poppet6 : I have a lot of trouble telling myself they're not real, since they use every detail of my life to make their talking very real. Despite the fact that I know the process, I can't get any distance from them. As for headphones and MP3 player, that's what I do, but it doesn't work as well as it used to.
Going out with someone I trust is a good idea, the only problem is that I live far away from my parents, that they don't understand why I freak out in the subway (despite telling them endlessly), and that I don't have friends in my vicinity. But I'll try to look into that.

rara avis : I'm sorry you have to deal with voices too. I definitely agree with you on the idea that they're incapacitating. As far as meds are concerned, I've tried haldoperidol, risperidone, chlorpromazine, amisulpride and others whose name I forgot. Basically nothing really worked, and the side effects were really bothering.
Music doesn't really help me anymore, but watching a movie/playing a video game can do the trick.
I like the idea of writing a list of all the reasons that make the voices untrue, I'll definitely look into that!