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All to keep me
Its gotten to the only time I SI is when I'm either high or depersonalizing. Good right? Well... No. When I'm high its because I'm trying to have a new scar (branding;scarification... can't get tattoos yet so I improvise). But I can't control it when I depersonalize. My body takes over and hacks at my skin almost mechanically. That's the only time I SI to SI, not for bodmod.
But until the cuts heal, I won't depersonalize again. So sometimes I SI before they're completely healed so I won't lose myself. Depersonalizing is terrifying for me. My body automatically hurts itself. It craves the pain.
Does this happen to anyone else? The depersonalizing staying away until the SIs heal, then all Hell breaks loose?
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