Hey, congrats on 5 months! That's awesome.
I'm in a similar position, having just succumbed to rising urges in the last few weeks. I'd been "clean", with a few short-lived lapses, since September last year. I really hope you find something that works for you..I know you won't need telling, but please try *everything* to resist going back down this track. Wage war. Recruit friends online or IRL to help you, distract you, let you vent, share a laugh with. Indulge your strengths & interests - write music or poetry or stories or scripts...art...scrapbooking...get into coding for arduino or some other IT project. I'm told that horseriding is calming, if you have access - otherwise, maybe spend some quality time with pets, if you have any. I found that constructing 3D jigsaw puzzles is engaging enough & fiddly enough to take my mind off urges, & you end up with a puzzle that you can keep as testament to the number of times you resisted the urges. Video games (I find the fighting ones can be good for anger). I think the key is to be *really doing something*, as opposed to doing something where it's easy for the mind to wander or get triggered (e.g., TV, computer, & reading can be my worst enemies).
Long-term, maybe find a cause to volunteer with - that helped me for a while, having a purpose, knowing people relied on me to function & I couldn't turn up after SIing.
But yeah, my suggestions probably aren't the best to go by, since I'm back falling into that hole. Wishing you the very best, though. Goodluck, take care. :)
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