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Gigantic mood swing
I'd like to preface this post by saying that I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder years ago, and I don't think I'm bipolar (at least, I've never been diagnosed with bipolar disorder). Now that that's out of the way...
Today I experienced pretty much the wildest, most sudden mood swing of my life. I wasn't feeling great at the start of the day as my date for tomorrow was cancelled, but within about twenty minutes of that cancellation, I was suddenly, inexplicably ecstatic (happy isn't quite the right word). I stayed that way for about seven or eight hours - I had no reason to be in a good mood, and yet I was in the most explosively, uncontrollably good mood I've ever experienced. Ever. It was actually pretty scary, my heart was racing and I was shaking... everything seemed funny, I had limitless energy, I threw myself into any task (no matter how mundane) with frankly embarrassing enthusiasm... basically my mood was completely out of control. Like I said, I don't think I'm bipolar, but it was what I've always imagined mania to feel like (though I'm not convinced it was mania - as I understand it, mania lasts a lot longer and is probably different in a number of ways to what I've just described, I don't know).
Then, about two hours ago, I was suddenly back to feeling like sh*t. Again, for no reason. It was like flicking a switch.
I've been struggling to clear my head ever since - I'm really confused, and emotionally exhausted to boot, so I'm not sure if I'm making a lot of sense. I'm not even entirely sure what I'm looking for here, except maybe if anyone knows what the hell just happened to me? I've never been prone to mood swings before, and what happened today scared the crap out of me. So does anyone have any idea what might have caused something like this?
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