Borderline Personality Disorder? generally disintegrating :(

[turnforthebizarre]

Ok,
My life has gone really wrong during the last month, I OD'd a few times and this ended up in hospital (A&E) a few times, plus got arrested twice and had to go to court.
I'm under the care of the Crisis Resolution Home Treatment (CRHT) team at the moment, because a psych nurse I spoke to at my GP surgery referred me as I felt really unsafe after my court appearence.
I feel like i'm disintegrating. I really don't want to end up in hospital or prison
A consultant psychiatrist from the Crisis team told me i might have Borderline Personality disorder. I've read about it before, and watched "Girl, Interrupted" (lol not a good source of info I know). Anyway, I'm really freaking out. I don't know whether becoming an inpatient would help (but i'm also really scared of that). Or what to do. I feel like my life is unraveling.

x

[Ellyx]

I can kindof relate, i don't have BPD (well thats under discussion according to my psych) but i have aspergers and have found myself in the criminal juststic system a few times. Though both cases got dropped. What are the nature of the cases?

I have found hospital a mixed experiance, but it certinly helped me get my life onto a even keel, and it might be worth it even just for a short peorid. Drop me a PM if you need to chat about anything xx

[Tig]

Hey,

I am sorry to hear you are having such a difficult time. It sounds like you have faced many difficulties in recent weeks. I'm glad you have the support of the crisis team though, I hope they are helping you.

It is scary the idea of going in-patient but sometimes it can be beneficial. There are specialist units for people with BPD, well there are specialist units for most mental health illnesses! Also, sometimes it can be helpful to go to an acute ward for respite - say a week in hospital, just to give yourself a break from the world and having to keep yourself safe etc.

It may help you to check out the BPD thread if you felt up to it.

xx

[kbeth]

If you can, try to find a therapist who can do DBT with you (dialectical behavioral therapy). It's the best for bpd (and for depression and anxiety too)! Some treatment programs have DBT programs too. Going inpatient was a huge huge help for my depression/anxiety, and I think it's good for bpd too--it gives you the chance to tackle your stuff without outside distractions. If you get the opportunity to go to a good inpatient program, I would definitely recommend it. It was a lifesaver for me. You just have to be ready to do some hard work--if you're not at the point where you're willing to really dive in, then you won't benefit much.