wondering if anyone could give some advice?

[psychadelicflowergirl]

i've been recently assigned an str (time and recovery support) worker.
she's been coming for the past two weeks to try and get me to do things that i don't think i'm ready to do- i.e go out of the house more than 5 feet..
i don't feel right with a stranger trying to get me to do these things, my husband is trying to help me as well and i think that it's more effective when my husband comes with me for a little walk to get me out of the house.
i feel so ashamed of myself for letting myself get like this- i'm embarrassed of my body because i'm overweight, i'm overweight because i have pcos (polycystic ovary syndrome) ... i also get a beard and am hairy all over.. i try to shave but nothing helps it i still feel like a freak the majority of the time, Social situations are nil for me- i hate them, i just want to curl up into the corner and ignore the fact anyone is there, i get panic attacks all the time which lately have worsened. i'm also quite worried because of the medication i'm on for my pcos, my liver seems to be bulging out profusely, i'm in a lot of pain in that area after i eat my dinner... and i'm wondering if this is a sign of toxicity? .. the doctors just won't listen to me and tell me to carry on with the meds etc. i was put on metformin to help me lose weight but ever since i've been on them i've been on a constant period... it's costing me a lot of money to have been bleeding for over a month now. money i haven't got because i am on ESA, and they aren't paying it into my bank account. i have no idea how i'm going to pay the bills and i have no idea how to cope.
just wondering if anyone could give me some advice of any kind?
just feeling so fed up with everything at the moment ...

[pea soup]

hi there,

well, first, I would demand the docs to listen and make them look at your abdomen if its bulging and in pain..very dangerous.

I dont know what resources you have but churches often help, salvation army, etc...just start calling around to anywhere you can for help with the bills.

im glad your husband is supportive. lean on him when you have to.

sorry i dont have more.

much love.
xxxxxxxxxx

[OverAndUnder]

I absolutely agree with pea soup. It's unfortunate when people have to demand attention from doctors, but I think that's what you need to do here. If your GP won't listen, go to the emergency room or a walk-in clinic. Hell, go to every clinic in town and see a dozen different doctors. Something is clearly very wrong and it should be treated quickly.

The same sort of thing happened to my mother a few years ago. They discovered a large fibroid on her uterus, said it was benign and that they would keep an eye on it. She developed more and more problems because of it but the doctors just kept saying "come back in six months and we'll check again." Eventually the bleeding got so bad that she had to yell at the doctor to do another scan. She was immediately admitted to the hospital and underwent an emergency hysterectomy THAT DAY. She could have died because the doctors were just "keeping an eye on things." I'm sorry, but no one knows your body better than you do and if you feel like something is wrong, yell and scream and do whatever it takes to get help.

I hope you're feeling better soon, this must be very stressful and frustrating! Best of luck.