ideations.

[RunningSilent]

*TRIGGER WARNING*

Idont have a plan.
i dont have clear intentions
but lately the thought has been haunting me.these ideations. I hope this isnt something that willget deleted...but i want to know ..how can i deal with these *sui* ideations..
Ive gotten to this point where i dont care anymore..where i feel detached from people..
and I cant deal....
I know I wont actually do anything...but it has become my recreation to have these..ideations of what it would b like.
howcan i break out of this infatuation with these thoughts..

[WinterSparkles]

Hey, firstly I'm sending big hugs to you!

Is there anyone in your life right now who you think you could trust enough to discuss these thoughts with? Sometimes it just helps to sit down with someone and go through why those thoughts and feelings are there, even if you don't feel they're going to be acted upon.

I'll admit I'm in the same situation, the thoughts bother me too.

The best thing for you to do would be to find out what the cause of the ideas is, and work out how best to go about dealing with them.

PM me if you like :)

Georgie xx

[RunningSilent]

I see a T..but I dont trust her enough to tell her this. no way. She doesnt even know I SI.I have nobody...except one friend...but ..she doesnt understand ..doesnt even know whats happening to me.

I know whats causing it..im living with somebody who is making me question my reality constantly....and hurting me..then acting like it didnt happen.
*trig*
I sit in class staring at the ropes hanging from the projector screens...
it scares me yet at the same time I feel like it doesnt bother me as much as it should...

I dont know

[WinterSparkles]

If you told your T, I'm sure she'd be okay with it. All of mine have known about my SI and they don't treat you any differently - it's scary to tell someone, but it would be better in the long run because then she can help you through it. T's aren't there to judge you :)

And it's more difficult when you're living with someone who causes you stress - you can either find a solution to the problem or work around it (if it's a problem you can't get rid of). As long as you know that you're not to blame for someone elses' actions!

Maybe you could distract yourself when the thoughts come along? Try to think of something else, something completely different which has no relation to anything in your classroom. Something safe, and something that makes you smile.

Hope you're alright, I'm here to PM if you want :)

Georgie xx

[RunningSilent]

Maybe when I trust my T more I may tell her.
I have been distracting myself with TV and movies...so far its been working.

thank u for ur kind response MissHaze :)