I can understand why you are feeling angry, but I also see the other end of the equation as well being someone that works in the field, when you are not feeling well particularly physically it can be extremely difficult to give the time and attention that each client requires and deserves because of what is happening for yourself. To be honest he would have probably been doing a dis-service to you if he stayed and suffered through an appointment....who knows what is morning involved, perhaps it was more practical, office work things like report writing and what have you. Nevertheless a professional is a human and they are allowed to experience human related things, like illness.
I also understand how it can sounds hypercritical hearing that he is going home and he suggests that you stay and push through, but perhaps that is because he feels that part of your work is to push through the symptoms that you are struggling with - which I assume might be things like isolating and sleeping away the day, finding it difficult to push yourself etc.
In terms of how to deal with the anger? Well I think it may be good to write about how it really feels underneath the anger that he cancelled the appointment - perhaps hurt, worry, fear etc? It can be really difficult to have a cancellation planned or otherwise particularly when you are anticipating the appointment to occur.
how are you going now? I hope that you take care of yourself, and please reach out when you need too.
be well darling.
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