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Needing advice on "clean days"
While I am mostly doing okay with things recently, I'm having this one issue that is interfering in my life and I can't seem to get past.
Some days, especially ones with a bad start (eg. nightmare, stressful day ahead, etc), I get into this state of mind where I need, what I call, a "Clean Day". While it's not entirely bad, it is a day where I just feel the need to be as clean as possible. I will shower numerous times, shave til legs are completely smooth, scrub myself til I'm red, etc. I get completely obsessive over trying to feel clean, but it's never good enough.
On one of these days I find it near impossible to leave the house, which, as you may be able to tell, can cause issues. Today, for instance, I am meant to be staying over at a friend's house with a couple of others (three of my closest friends), and I really don't want to postpone it because of this, because it already has been delayed by about 2 months. Yet, I don't know how to deal with this urge to be clean.
So, any advice on this would be really appreciated. I really don't want to let my friends down, and I do want to enjoy myself, I just don't know how to deal with this.
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