My psych has diagnosed agitated depression. Most days Im ok but some days its hard. Todays one of them days. My mind is going in circles, I cant keep myself calm, just flying off the handle with my son and husband, but so so low. Im struggling to find any kind of physical energy to do anything even type this. I struggled to pick up both my wson & my daughter today.
I have to much to do in the house but i just cant do it the tears wont stop flowing. My mind is wired. I dont know how to cope and when i googled there isnt much around.
I'm sorry you're having such a hard time.
Some of the things that have helped me when I've felt similar to you are exercise, such as going for a long walk (although I know you said you've no energy so that might not be appropriate), or doing something relaxing like having a long soak in the bath, curl up in bed and watch telly or listen to music etc.
Have you got any PRN medication you can take?
Don't worry about housework and things now. Those things are unimportant and can always be done later or by somebody else.
Is there something your husband could do to help you right now?
Please take care
There are, it has been said, two types of people in the world. There are those who, when presented with a glass that is exactly half full, say: 'This glass is half full'. And then there are those who say: 'This glass is half empty'.
The world belongs, however, to those who can look at the glass and say: 'What's up with this glass? Excuse me? Excuse me? This is my glass? I don't think so. My glass was full! And it was a bigger glass!
I second what both Mikey and Tig said, I've been there and it truly sucks. I'm not in the best space right now so don't really have any advice other than try to remember that you won't feel like that forever ("this too shall pass"), even though I know it can feel that way. Please look after yourself and try to take it easy - your health is more important than anything at the moment. Take care *hugs*
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I have periods of what my GP calls agitated depression, though it's not from Bipolar illness, at least in my case. I also understand how distressing it can be - that whole feeling of being highly enervated with your mind racing and the same time as feeling so low.
thank you for your replies, i wasnt sure what I was looking for really, just that to know Im not alone is a massive comfort in itself.
Im not sure if this comes from the bipolar in me, my mother has bipolar so I guess it could be, but we haven't got that far along the diagnosis yet.
I am taking 150mg sertraline, I have been referred to a mother & baby unit as this episode started after my daughter was born, so Ive been treat as if Ive got post natal depression, but I have probably 2 or 3 episodes like this a year and have done for the past 11 years.
Just one thing I was wondering, my mood seems to be swinging very quickly, like yesterday when I posted I was incredibly low with a lot of pent up energy, then I had a bit of an argument with my husband and got really angry (unneccessarily) and then proceded to clean the house from top to bottom and do a zumba work out DVD. Then as quickly as my mood had swung up, it came right back down again. Then up again, then down again. Is that typical of this? I kind of assumed with bipolar or any other kind of mood disorders that the swings wouldn't be quite as rapid?
I have mixed episodes currently experiencing one following childbirth. With mixed you can go from one end to the other several times a day and/or experience them both together so be laughing but have tears in your eyes due to being low, energy that turns to restlessness and agitation but lacking the motivation to get up and do something. Im like you regarding the anger once im angry i go "nuts" and have to work so fast, i have racing thoughts but instead of the flight of ideas the thoughts are negative and reflect the loathing and hatred im feeling. I have paranoia that everyone is judging me, judging my parenting, watching for that one mistake and im either gonna be locked away or my hubby will leave me and take our child with him.
The sertraline could be making things worse have you spoken to anyone at the unit yet? A perinatal psychiatrist specialises in antenatal and postnatal psychiatry and will know how to treat you better than a cmht. The unit may also have a specialist nursery nurse who will be able to help you and help aid bonding with your child. I have a nursery nurse, cpn and psych from the perinatal service.
Hope that helps somewhat x
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Thank you that is really helpful, I am sorry you're having a hard time too.
I am seeing someone regularly from the perinatal service (psychiatrist). I have bonded perfectly with my daughter which is good :)
Your reply is really helpful, I have been so worried about the rate and severity of my mood swings, and the restlessness and agitation, it didnt ever seem to 'fit' in with any diagnosis.
