I'm a cutter, and lately I've been wanting to go into a coma. I want to go into a coma because I need a break from my mind, I can't get away from it unless I'm in a dreamless sleep. In a coma, my mind would be blank, and my sleep would be dreamless. I know it would hurt people who love me, but I just need a week at least. I need an escape. Cutting used to be my escape, but now its what I want to get away from. I want to overdose on pills, not enough to kill me, not as a suicide attempt, just enough to do damage. When I sleep normally, I dream of cutting. I just can't take it anymore. What should I do?
Talk to your doctor asap. There is a danger you could take too much and die or end up brain dead. But you really need to speak to your doctor and get some support.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
I can relate to this, and my thoughts are with you. You should let a professional know how your feeling as the others said its very dangerous *hugs* x x
I understand this feeling and it is the reason behind some of my ods - to get a break from my head. Unfortunately all the **** is still there when you come round.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Although I can understand the need for release, and the need to escape from how you are feeling - I can say that there is no guarantee that taking an overdose on tablets will guarantee you the release you are seeking. There is no guarantee that they will enable you the dreamless sleep you are after and for this reason, I would urge you to not use this as a method of release. It is far more dangerous than cutting is as a method of release and has many more risks of going wrong.
I think it would be much better for you to look at what it is you want to escape and be released from - As these things are still going to be there when you return from any from of release. It is far better to work through these things than to try and escape them for any length of time, only to return to them later.
I would urge you to reach out for help in dealing with the isssues you are facing, rather than to try and run away from them and take risks in doing so.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
I feel I can relate as I've often wished I've wanted to not be awake but not be asleep because of dreams. I think the suggestions of talking to someone are good.
I think facing problems can be really draining, and takes a lot of courage, but I feel it's really the only way to deal with things, to face them and deal with them.
I think to appreciate dreamless sleep, or unconsciousness you'd have to be able to notice that you were unconscious or that you weren't dreaming, which I'm not sure is possible (but please correct me if I'm wrong). I think to notice things you have to have some sort of conscious awareness, I'm assuming you wouldn't have that if you were in a coma. As mentioned above overdosing is dangerous, there's a real risk of death or if it doesn't end your life then organ damage.
I think it'd be wise to talk to someone, if you're in regular contact with a doctor or therapist then talking to them would be good. Or a friend or relative who you'd feel comfortable talking to.
I know how it feels. I will go to bed wanting to cut have a restless less and wake up the same way. I will have dreams that I am in the hospital which I absolutely hate. Its like you can't get away from anything even when you are just sleeping. i'd talk to a therapist or someone who can help. I'm currently trying to work with my doctors at the moment. It will take time but please be careful. It takes time but we can overcome this.
