but things have suddenly started slipping...or slippimg faster? Idk.
The thread is in Vets, so most will know what im on about i supoose.
Anyways, voiuces that had near gone have come back quite fierce.
But one is now 'his'...but not really.
I don't quite know how to explain that, but in 'better' moments, I know he wouldn't say/feel these awful things
I think...
I'm scared to say much more because of , well 'threats' i suyppose you could call them.
Oh i dont know.
It is just a jumbled mess and im feeling ill agin. But i simply cant be. Meds are not helping, dont want to have to increrase again.i dont know what i want, anything i suppose
thx for raeding
Oh Romp, it's not surprising really that things would get a littlew rough considering all you have gone through recently. Maybe you could see an increase in meds as a temporary thing to get you through this time?
*hugs*
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
*hugs*
I agree, perhaps a meds increase is what's needed temporarily, just to get you through this rough patch. What's helped in the past when you've felt things are slipping?
Take care romp and keep talking to us
xxxxx
There are, it has been said, two types of people in the world. There are those who, when presented with a glass that is exactly half full, say: 'This glass is half full'. And then there are those who say: 'This glass is half empty'.
The world belongs, however, to those who can look at the glass and say: 'What's up with this glass? Excuse me? Excuse me? This is my glass? I don't think so. My glass was full! And it was a bigger glass!
Thank you so much. It always amazes me how wonderful you are guys are to me. To everyone.
I did increase my bedtime seroquel, to aslmost half normal dose last night.
But, with my mom here it is odd.
Because it makes me sleep quite late (800mg,). And i havent quite explained any of that to her..,.
I had to decrease it when i was there in November (because of my dad have nightime delusions and a 7 am dialysis exchange) to 100-150. Seemed ok.
I still havent been able to go back to the 800 and my doc did agree i could try to ) cut it to 350-400/.
Only been managing 200-250 lately.
But i must say, i would rather it be lower, if possible. 800 just seems so very much, you know?
But the voices/nightmares are getting pretty bad.
The seeing things throughout the day are increasing to.
Was an awkweard moment ewhen i swore i saw a spider across the floor...but was obvious it wasnt.
The camera bits are getting bad too.
So, taker it, yes. I know.
Yet here i sit at near 4 am, still not taken.
I guess the recent weight loss has had an effecdt too, because ive lost quite a bit, i guess since dropping the dose.
Oh wiow, ramb;le.
stopping.
But, reallty, thank you all so much. Especially since ive not been a support to anyonme much lately.
xxx
Romp hun, I think you need to explain it to your mum and start increasing your dose a little. I don't think you need to set 800mg as a target, just increase it with your doctors guidance and see how you feel. I know 800mg seems like a lot, I was on it for a little while but if the Seroquel helps at all (and it seems to from what you have said) then surely a slightly awkward conversation with your mother is preferable to feeling how you do now?
I was wondering if maybe there is an element of 'punishing'? I may be totally wrong and if so I apologise but I know you have said you feel guilty sometimes for what happened with your dad (even though you have NO reason to).
