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I realised a few minutes ago that it really has been three years since I've had anyone in any way.
I know it's my fault because I don't go out more than a couple of times a year and when I do I'm usually too shy to talk to anyone. either that or i don't think they look like my type. Yeah, i judge by appearance. any sign of fake tan or a push up hair-do and I don't think they're my type. I prefer someone with intelligence and culture and learning and interests beyond katie price's reality show and the only way is essex. if they look like a character from the only way is essex; I avoid them.
i prefer someone who reads, someone who is maybe a little bit of a geek but just someone who is odd in some way and doesn't mind being not what society considers "normal"
I'm rambling.
It really doesn't matter what my type is because I'm always too nervous to talk to anyone. I don't know what to say and, lets face it, i just don't think I have any qualities anyone would want. I'm just not worth anyone's time. I can't be what anyone would want. People have standards after all.
I think i've found the subject of my next therapy session. All the progress I've made and I still have a road block when it comes to relationships. or even just talking to someone.
Just curious as to how many are starting 2012 without a bf/gf?
How many are fine being single?
Or how many, like me, wish they had someone?
I'll probably be single at the end of 2012 too, unless a miracle happens.
Don't be fooled by my smooth skin. The deepest scars are the ones unseen.
Remember compliments you received, forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how..~ Baz Lurhman.
Letting it get to you - You know what that's called? Being alive. Best thing there is. Being alive right now that's all that counts. ~ Doctor Who "The Doctors Wife" 06.November.2011
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
Doesn't bother me, I don't like people all that much and find them thoroughly irritating the majority of the time. I was in a relationship for 3 years and was glad when it ended because I don't like unwanted intrusions into my personal affairs. Clingy people especially really annoy me, I can quite happily go for weeks without speaking to another person.
Some men aren't looking for anything logical, like money.
They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with.
Some men just want to watch the world burn.
I'm entering it single, the person I like is too blind to notice so here's to another year starting it single. Only ever been one year when I've not been single on new years...
Don't feel too bad, I haven't been with anybody in about 7 1/2 years...if that one even counted.
So yes, I am single and will be single. I'm not sure if I should even want someone...since that wouldn't be fair. I'm finished trying to make friends or going out of my way to meet people. And in the end is it even worth it? (it wasn't before really).
I have a couple of nice hoodies too. and a few pairs of trackies.
Don't be fooled by my smooth skin. The deepest scars are the ones unseen.
Remember compliments you received, forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how..~ Baz Lurhman.
Letting it get to you - You know what that's called? Being alive. Best thing there is. Being alive right now that's all that counts. ~ Doctor Who "The Doctors Wife" 06.November.2011
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
Tried hanging out at the local coffee shops with a book, maybe your journal?
I did it, just to keep myself from isolating, and while I had a lot of guys troll me about the size of my rack, I kept doing it, and finally, someone asked me out. twas nice. He's a nerd, and I love it.
Try it, it may just work out.
Good luck.
*huggles*
"Burn the land and boil the sea, you can't take the sky from me......<3
I'm also single... and I don't know if it bothers me or not.
I like to think it doesn't. But sometimes I get very lonely and I wish I had someone. It's my fault that I'm single though... I don't go out often and I don't think I can trust people. So I guess I'll just stay alone for another while.
I'd fly away to a higher place
to say words I resist, to float away, to sigh, to breathe... forget~
Man, I don't even know what cuddles are really like...
Maybe I should just stay single so I never know what i'm missing? Just kidding—I think.
And what coffee shops are you going to? I've never gotten comments at a coffee shop...in fact I'm almost invisible in public places despite the way I look. Go figure.
