Contains alcohol - is this a problem???

muddy path · 27-12-2011, 01:31 AM

I'm 14 and recovering from anorexia, I've had depression and ocd in the past and have lived with my sister, her partner and their 2 young kids for over a year. I ran away from my mother who haI am allowed to drink but have been slipping, nowadays I drink about 3-4 days a week and feel that if I have 1 drink i must get off my face, I want to cut back but can't seem to. I find myself diluting vodka bottles with water to appear that I haven't drunk as much and am starting to hide alcohol in my room. I'm trying but can't seem to stop, I don't get to the point I vomit much and hardley get a hangover but it's getting expensive, I have an addictive personality and can get very obseessive. As it's the holidays I'm drinking more often, just at home when everyone's in bed. My new family's so supportive and my eating's getting much better so I don't want to develop another problem. There is an alcoholism history in my family. I'm not having any pysical symptoms like shakes etc and I don't drink in the day but definitly feel it if I've gone without. I can't talk to anyone, my sister sits though all my therapy sessions and I don't want to go into hospital again, so any reply is welcome. Please respond.

mat · 28-12-2011, 09:06 AM

Yes its not good. Alcohol isn't my drug of choice but its so readily available that I would consider myself an alcoholic. I would trip over watering down alcohol. When I was your age ppl didn't want to deal with me as I was in a gang so they would just get me alcohol n know I wouldn't be a problem. If you gotta hide it its a problem. I personally been court ordered to do 3 years worth of aa/na meetings, long done now but no fun. I learned from those meetings that a average alcoholic sabotages ruins 8 relationships in their life because of alcohol. I would personally seek help now, especially if your prone to alcoholism cause of your family. I would suggest getting help NOW. Before it gets a bigger problem and you don't care n develop a need to drink. I'm here if you want to talk.