inside my head

E666 · 24-12-2011, 09:19 AM

So dunno if this is the best place for it but yeah being told to kill everyone... you know my mum... sisters... my friends... my friends babys... people in the street.. look away look back... a whole new way to kill them again and again and again people can try and imagine it i bet it looks like I'm attention seeking... being told that my blood is poisend another trip to hospital to stop bleeding that i can't stop myself yup that happenes at least once a month... it actually feels like my blood is messed up i can feel it it makes me feel sick... they look at me as if I've made it all up i mean why would i think of ways of killing people its not me its not my voice in my head at all every time i make a new post i think I'm just wasting space on here... its the only place in the world i write this i should really show the early intervention people this...

Sooty · 24-12-2011, 06:04 PM

Hi again Elliot

What you are hearing must be very frightening and disturbing for you. Please don't think that you are wasting space here because you have the right to post here just as much as everyone else does! I'm glad that you have managed to write stuff down somewhere. I think it would be an idea to print off anything you've written on RYL to take with you and show whoever you go to see about this.

Sophie.x

getting_by · 26-12-2011, 12:41 PM

Hey Elliot,

Really sorry to see your struggling so much at the moment.

I think it would be a good idea to show the EITeam this if you possibly an. They will be able to help you. To suggest things that will help and to reassure you your not alone in this.

It seems in your post that your head is working in overdrive. Is this the case? Do you find anything calms it down at all? Its just when your head is 'wuuring' it can be really hard to stop and think rationally.

Just remember, they are only thoughts and things- you don't have to act on them, but I know that they are really distressing.

Keep talking hun. Its good to talk. Take care.
xRolix

E666 · 26-12-2011, 09:38 PM

I used to take things apart now i can't for the life of me do that scared i might find a transformer or a bomb or something yeah it would be a good idea to show eiteam buuht i can't bring myself to they only know 10% of all this my falt if they asked a direct question then they would get what they need but when they are sat waiting for an answer i can't get what i really need to say across i panic and give shadows of it all or i get hyped up on Pepsi and drift off the subject