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[E666]

Can't sleep grrrrr this voice is so loud... so persistent he mostly tells me to hurt people or myself i know hurting people is wrong... myself? Whole different story its going to happen again i can feeel it all in my blood he tells me things what i should do to stop this feeling... but not yet... shhhhh too early too soon I'm lucky i don't spend long in hospital when it happens 2 hours is the longest if i pay full attention to what's going on and look at people when they talk and not laugh at what's happend they think its just another self harm thing they don't know that i wait until i almost pass out to stop the blood its all poison every last drop of it i shouldn't be allowed the computer haha Google Google Google this voice he is more of a friend then anyone i know he's always there he knows whats wrong with my blood stupid white noise in my ears... arggggg

[Sooty]

Hi Elliot

It's been a couple of hours since you posted so I hope that you're tucked up in bed somewhere sound asleep.

You say the voice you hear is a friend but would a friend in flesh tell you to hurt other people and yourself? A true friend would do just the opposite. If the voice cared so much about you then he'd be trying to protect you from hurt and pain.

Sophie.x

[Stellata]

Where does it hurt in you, emotionally?

[E666]

Hummm sleep would be nice at some point lol I'm really surprised I'm allowed the internet back there is a darker side of Google that mum found the history whoops so I'm back in my bedroom he has given me a headache grrrr this voice is having a field day there was a stabbing a few days ago don't worry i waz at home when it happened but that doesn't stop him painting a mental image of what it would feel like... my arms feel all wrong again its the same feeling i get when my blood it bad he laughed i binned my... tools? Now he is telling me about other things i can use I've lasted 2 weeks before i did it before must push on wait until the house is empty