so basically, i had a steaming argument with my mum on wednesday who is abusive to say the least. she was making violent gestures and it sent me straight into an anxiety attack due to the memories it brought back.
she left for work, i spoke to someone about how i was feeling, they called the police unknown to me.
i was just preparing myself for a lethal overdose, showering, going for a last smoke, about to apply make up, had it all planned out.
then the police turned up, sat with me for 7 hours because they couldn't section me in my own house. they eventually at 5am persuaded me to go to a&e with them after having seen the on-call doctor, social workers and other people on the phone. they were considering getting my mum done for neglect just to get me out of the house (i'm sixteen).
at a&e they sent me to a 136 suite in the nearest psych ward.
i was assessed there and put with the crisis team to get the through the weekend and then have appointments with camhs on monday (cpn) and tuesday (psych).
but i don't understand why everyone is making such a big deal out of it because i'm not sad. i've been numb for many weeks now (following a very bad patch involving a few overdoses and a lot of SHing) but considering that i'm not bad. i don't need their extra support, i am perfectly sane i just don't want to be part of life any more.
i'm just so confused why they're making such a big deal out of it all.
