Triggering (SI) - Someone help me?

Daydream · 17-09-2007, 04:32 PM

I'm having another urge. Its like the sixth or seventh this week, after weeks and weeks of none. This time its to bang my wrist. Bad, like I normally do when I bang my wrist. Its making me feel sick and shaky. I cant do it. I cant. I'll let everyone down. I cant take letting everyone down again. I dont think they can take it either. Well if I am going to do it, I'm going to have to wait. I cant do it right before my little brothers birthday. I'll ruin his day if I did. I dont want to do that.
NO. No, I cant do it. I'm NOT going to make plans to self harm. I'm NOT going to bang my wrist.
Or am I?
I'm so confused.
I want to hurt myself so bad. I havent in almost 19 weeks. I dont want congratulations. I want to stop feeling like this.
Help.

shadow-seeker · 17-09-2007, 04:51 PM

you won't be letting anyone down
what is it that's making you want to s/h??
xxxx *hugs*

Louise · 17-09-2007, 05:07 PM

You will not be letting anyone.. Has something triggered you to want to self harm. *Hugs*

Daydream · 17-09-2007, 05:52 PM

I dont know why I'm triggered. Nothing has triggered me in particular. Recently I'm being triggered by air, it seems. Its just there. I feel really bad and it bothers me that I dont know why I'm feeling this way.

Louise · 17-09-2007, 05:59 PM

It's not uncommon to get urges to harm yourself you should be proud of yourself that you managed that long to not harm sometimes the urges can be part of recovery. L x

Louise · 17-09-2007, 06:02 PM

could you try to distract yourself?