Contains Suicide - So alfraid and lost...dont know who i am anymore!?

[mags21]

I haven't logged on here for approx 12months....thought i was okay. I guess the truth is i was hiding it, putting up a front and convincing everyone around me including myself i was fine...nothing was wrong with me!
Wish that was true...never felt so vunerable, last week i was hospitalised after taking an overdose, everyone close to me has seen me for who i am!! a coward. every night i can't sleep i just lie there crying! i've never felt so much emotional pain...i just feel nobody understands me anymore. I'm sorry i just feel this is my last hope, fed up of talking to councilors and doctors. i just want this feeling to go away now!! x

[minnie]

heya mags...you arent a coward hunni....you are unwell and need to seek more help....please let them help you....or ask for the help you deserve hun xxhugsxx

[Chia]

Sadly feelings don't just go away. But things will improve. I can't tell you how or when but I can tell you that people have been in your position and have come out the other side.

But you do need to talk to someone about your problems. Either the people online, your doctors/councellors or a friend/family member. You need to sort things out in your mind to understand that there is another way out.

Also, as someone who has been on the recieving end of being told someone they know has tried to commit suicide I can tell you that the people who know what you tried to do don't think your a coward. They will likely be worried about you and will desperately want to help you but they won't think any less of you.

I hope you feel better soon.
xx

[dollpart]

*Huge Hug*.

Nobody thinks you are a coward. Probably they are worried, upset- even angry- and all those things are natural. None of those things, though, means that they think any less of you.

How are you now?