Basically i need to have a bit of a rant because im so mad at my sister.
When i was 12 i started cutting. And then all of a sudden once she found out, my sister starts cutting. I stopped eating. She stopped eating. I start bingeing and purging. She starts bingeing and purging. I have previously tried to take my life by overdose, and you guessed it-she tried to do it too
Its sick. I am so tolerant of people with mental health issues after myself being diagnosed and put on various medications. But i cant get my head around this. She isnt my sister anymore. She is manipulative, she steals from me, and copies my mental health problems, she seeks attention from teachers at her school and from doctors.
Its reached boiling point now. When she got taken into hospital i really didnt care whether she would be coming home or not. I feel so guilty for feeling this way. I should care, she's my sister. But i cant help it i just dont.
My mum hates me for this, i can tell. But im slowly recovering, slipped back into harming but my eating is better and i havent thought about ending my life in about 4 months, which is good for me. She just makes it so much more difficult for me to recover. And yes im being selfish and im not thinking of her but i dont care. I dont want her in my life. Im tired of the lies and the manipulation and the fact that she chooses to have these mental health issues. Its wrong on so many levels.
I don't think she 'chooses' to have these issues and I always feel that 'attention seeking' behaviour is a sign of an underlying need that hasn't been addressed. You don't say how old she is, but if you were 12 when you started I'm assuming that she could have been younger? I know it is hard, but I'd try to concentrate on your own excellent recovery and hope that she 'copies' this too. x
^^ I agree with starting.. sounds attention seeking but probably an underlaying issues.. if she was really young when she saw you go through this it would've had some affect on her..
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I know it is hard, but I'd try to concentrate on your own excellent recovery and hope that she 'copies' this too. x
I agree with posts above, my sister cut herself once, she knew i been self harming for a few months by that point and she said she tried it because she fell out with her boyfriends parents and she was peed off. She brushed it with some excuse but me and mum new she done it on purpose and she did come clean, but thankfully shes a wimp with pain and shes not done it since!
I hope she stops soon though, and you can rant whenever you like that what forums like this are for
*hugs*
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I think this one of those cases where we should think about attention-needing instead of attention seeking. She probably saw how much attention you got for those issues, and decided that doing the same thing would get her attention. We all need attention, but not all of us know appropriate ways of getting attention.
^ that is the most appropriate way of describing this - "attention needing as opposed to attention seeking". I agree with what you've said and the posts above.
One of my friend started cutting because I did and because she really did have a bad childhood, she made me feel inadequate.
I use to 'seek' attention - there was a reception woman in my college that i got really attached to and if I didn't see her for a few days, I could cut just to go into her office (she was the first aider) because I needed to find out if she cared or not .. I don't think neccessarily that attention seeking is bad in all respects... but I agree that attention needing is a better phrase.
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“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he'd see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fiber and everything I'd ever done...I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn't. There is none.”
I think it's understandable you feel upset, although your sister probably does have some sort of mental health problem causing her to need negative attention and to manipulate. Is she getting any help for it? That's the only way for it to stop is if someone trained can help her understand why she's doing these things for attention and emulating you, even when it's something negative. But I can understand why you'd be so upset by it, it's very difficult to tolerate that kind of behavior when you've never experienced it yourself. I know I struggle with understanding a person who manipulates to get attention. But really, it is a mental health problem and she needs treatment. But that doesn't mean you have to put up with manipulation either, you can be understanding and still draw boundaries so she can't make you worse.
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going to those lengths to get attention is a problem in itself i think....
i agree with the above, maybe there is some sort of underlying problem there.
maybe she thought because you were getting attention from it (if you were) she thought that was the best way for her to get it.
my little sister is like that, always has been but with physical problems instead, she is only 7. it is annoying, but i think she just wants to be like me because im older. although i dont know if your sister is older or younger.
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I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I don't think she 'chooses' to have these issues and I always feel that 'attention seeking' behaviour is a sign of an underlying need that hasn't been addressed. x
This.
Why, if you feel a little more positive than you have been in the past, dont you offer her some support? Maybe, you could both go on the jouney of fully recovering together..
