ve never been closer to cutting myself for so long.
bad bad week.
so anways, my own PC is borked, i think its the motherboard cuz it keeps fixing itslef in one way and dying again in another. that would be ok but i decided to get technical and open it up,
slashed my hand up on the case.
so i was PO'd and frustrated and the cuts on my hand didnt help at all.
so all i been thinking about for last 2 days is cutting myself, its crap.
and unrelated - ive been seeing weird little floaty things in my vision for ages, and in the last year little tiny sparkly flashes too.
i thought it was a kinda on-going flashback from some mushroom trips i had a few years ago, but tonight i was reading some very weird and random websites about flashbacks, which pointed out some medical condition which is nick-named floaters. it even had a picture of what it is ive been seeing!
so at least its real, cant be that bad right? wrong.
its what happens to really old people when their eyes start to degrade, or really short sighted people *like me*
the little flashes ae just happy little sparkles reminding me that i could go blind!
bloody horrible week.
gah.
and its only wednesday/thursday.
P.S im totally not making it up about these visual floater things. its crazy. - this is what i see floating about giving me the fear
http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedi...2/Floaters.png
