Encouragement?

[SundayGirl] · 15-09-2011, 12:56 PM

Hey guys sorry to post, i dont mean to be taking up space especially as i havent been as active as i used to be but i could really do with reassurance.
Ive been out of IP for 2 weeks now, & things ar going well. Im eating the RDA, not bping & my weights going up. But, my BMI has left the "critical" catogory & is getting closer to leaving the anorexic catorgory to (which is my aim, i aim to be healthy) But now, the thoughts are creeping back in for me to restrict again, telling me im fat again. I can not get that ill again,i want to get better so bad what should i do??

Lyddie · 15-09-2011, 01:07 PM

Hi Linzie love. There is absolutely no need to apologise, sweetie. You need to concentrate on you at the moment and we're here to support you with this.

Firstly, I am so proud of you for how well you've been doing. Seriously, you are an absolute inspiration. Remember that those thoughts that are creeping back are your ED. Your ED wants to regain control, but you can beat it. You are so much stronger than it and I know that Linzie (the kind, sweet, funny, caring Linzie we know) wants to beat those thoughts and keep going with recovery.

Keep rationalising those thoughts. You are not fat, you're still underweight. You have worked so hard for this, don't let your ED put all your hard work to waste.
Is there anyone you feel you can talk to about how you're feeling at the moment?

Do you have a list of the positive aspects of recovery, to keep you on the right track? Being healthy will make you so much happier and you're getting your life back.

Stay strong, sweetie
<3

*Stars_above* · 16-09-2011, 11:24 AM

You should try and talk back to the voices out loud, if the voice screams loud in your head you scream louder out loud. Replace the bad with good, the voice will be there for a while but don't play on it's words. Your getting your life back together, your getting better, healthy, don't let it twist your words.

Well done for coming so far, you can keep going, your life is yours too take back, grap it with two hands and never let go, xxx

[SundayGirl] · 16-09-2011, 01:29 PM

Lyddie<3 thankyou so much for the support, there isnt many people i can talk to atm, i have my ED weigh in tomorrow so i could mention something buut it wont be useful. I did make a list of the positives of recovery, they out weigh the reasons to get ill again for sure, its just hard when that voice is there.

Foreveroverweight, thankyou. i am trying today to talk back rather than ignore. <3333

Lyddie · 16-09-2011, 02:07 PM

Good luck with the weigh-in tomorrow. And definitely mention the thoughts. You never know, they might offer some support/help/guidance, and it can't hurt to tell them.
Glad to hear you've got a list and that it outweighs getting ill again. Just keep fighting and fighting and arguing against that voice. It might get very hard, but keep arguing back, and then it will get easier with time.

<3

[LittleMonster] · 21-09-2011, 01:47 PM

Keep going Linzie, proud of you.
Talk to me anytime xx

Buttercup. · 21-09-2011, 05:55 PM

Keep going sweetie. I'm proud of you and you can do this. You are beautiful. Keep the positives in mind always xoxoxo

fragile as glass · 21-09-2011, 06:33 PM

Remember all the hard work that you have done whilst in IP. You don't want to undo all the progress that you worked so hard to achieve.

Leaving you some hugs to take if you want them *hugs*

OceanBlues · 27-09-2011, 12:42 AM

Wow look how far you have come i'm sooo proud of you beautiful. I hope you keep it up as you deserve to live life. Sorry I am low on words right now as I am struggling but please don't give into that vile voice. It will take time, my psych described it like foots steps in snow. 2 path ways and the positive side foot steps has disappered so it takes time buliding a path way again and it will take awhile to get rid of the negative pathway. does that make sense or am I ramblen :L

I love you
take care sweety
<3

[SundayGirl] · 30-09-2011, 04:49 PM

thankyou all so so so much for the support, i really apreciate it. \Im fighting so hard right now and tbh im doing quite well, but now

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. im starting to feel huge again. I know i wont stop fighting, ive worked to hard, its just hardd to ignore the thoughts sometimes

[LittleMonster] · 09-10-2011, 01:14 AM

I know how you feel, pretty sure I've left "underweight" altogether, but I am so much happier it's untrue.
This fighting is so so worth it
xx

xjessx · 09-10-2011, 08:39 AM

That feeling of being huge will pass, your just not used to the weight and if you have people to talk to, therapy, possibly meds, ways to cope with the feelings it will begin to fade. I honestly think everyone feels that, and you get so used to your body even slight changes are noticed in any aspect, ie take cutting your hair short if it were long, youl feel completely different and unconfident for a while, but you grow used to it =)

Buttercup. · 09-10-2011, 02:55 PM

I know this is scary hun, but I'm so proud of you. You are such an inspiration to me. You do not need anorexia. All this disorder has done for you is lie to you and hurt you. Don't listen to ED voice..you are not fat and I know that your logical mind knows that. You can do this girly <3