It wasn't meant to be this hard!

[Opheliac] · 31-08-2011, 09:43 PM

I've been hearing voices for a while now but recently they have been persistant and clear and I know it's real but I'm scared no one will believe me.
They are characters from the play Hamlet: mainly Queen Gertrude, Claudius and Horatio. They tell me the play is a dramamtic premonition of my fate and the character of Ophelia is really written about me and that I will soon drown.

Up until now I have felt calm about this and accepting but a close friend of mine was just telling me how hard she'd find it if I died and it all suddenly feels so wrong.

I don't know what to do. I'm scared and confused

dontforgettosmile · 31-08-2011, 09:49 PM

Have you spoken to a professional about the voices? they will be able to help you if you are brave enough to talk to them. and they will believe you, they are there to help.
thinking of you. xxx

[Opheliac] · 31-08-2011, 09:59 PM

No I've not told anyone. I'm so scared.
He wrote my fate you see and bad things will happen to my family if i don't go through with it, if these things don't happen and I'm scared, terrified actually.

dontforgettosmile · 31-08-2011, 10:04 PM

try not to worry about it all. you really need to speak to someone and get some help hun. they will understand-they are they to help you. i know it will be hard but try to be brave. if you're too scared to say it out loud try writing it all down. Is there anyone that could go with you? maybe the close friend you mentioned? im here for you xxx

[Opheliac] · 31-08-2011, 10:14 PM

Who would I tell? I have no one to tell.
This is real though, because im not ill or anything im just confused. I get a bit depressed sometimes I guess.
It's fate, thats what horatio says over and over your fate is sealed, it's fate, to muddy death.
Gertrude cries and cries. oh the f*cking crying! I can't sleep properly.

dontforgettosmile · 31-08-2011, 10:18 PM

*hugs* maybe speak to your gp? they will point you in the right direction and there will be someone that can help you. It may seem so real hun, but there will always be something that can help you through it.
xxx

RiverSong · 31-08-2011, 10:27 PM

GP sweety. Straight to your GP. I know it's hard. I've dragged my arse down there myself but please do this.
xx

[Opheliac] · 31-08-2011, 10:29 PM

They don't like that, they don't like that at all. It's not how it's supposed to be. I shouldn't have spoken, it's all written.
They are so loud, crying, demanding, repeating

silent_scars11 · 31-08-2011, 10:41 PM

Honestly, a professional can and will help you get through this. They'll help you to get rid of those voices. You're stronger than them. It's okay to go to the doctor, you'll be safe. I know it's really hard to do, but I know you can do it. We're all behind you <3

<3

[Opheliac] · 31-08-2011, 10:55 PM

I'm already under a CMHT and I have a CPN who I've only just started seeing again after 3 months and I don't trust her. I can't tell her.
I don't trust them, they won't help, will they. I don't know, I don't know.
I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't anyone to get hurt.

Niniane · 31-08-2011, 10:57 PM

If the voices are real to you, then it means they are. Did something specific happen for them to get suddenly persistent ?

I was wondering, have you actually ever managed not to do as the fate the voices planned for you ?
And (sorry, another question), are they only telling you that you'll drown, or does your fate includes other events ?

And I agree with the others, you should tell a doctor. Even if you can't get rid of them, it'll be easier if you can talk about it.

RiverSong · 31-08-2011, 11:07 PM

You have the right to request a different CPN.
And you have the right to ask for an appointment with the psychiatrist.

If you have any problems regarding the above, the GP will help. That's what they are there for. We just need to give you a little encouragement to speak up.

[Opheliac] · 01-09-2011, 10:40 AM

Hi im [Opheliac] 's partner. Just to let you know that she's been sectioned.

When i became aware of these issues I tried to talk to her about it and she became very distressed and tried to run away to kill herself 'as it's been writen'. I restrained her and called the police.

She's been given an injection and she's been sleeping since.

Thank you for your support everyone xx

when.will.it.end · 01-09-2011, 11:15 AM

I'm sorry to hear this, thanks for letting us know. I hope she gets proper help now x

roiben · 01-09-2011, 01:34 PM

I am sorry to hear you have been sectioned, hun. As scary as it is, do try to work with them at the hospital, as they can help you.

I know the text of Hamlet very well (studied it as GCSE, A Level and University) - and I can understand how scary it must be for you to believe that these events will unfold. What I can say though, is that Shakespeare wrote this text as a play, only ever to unfold on a stage and what happens in the play almost certainly will not be what happens to you. There is too much there that will not tally up with modern day living - the role of Ophelia herself is a noblewoman of Denmark with a Mother and Father that are most certainly not the same as yours.

I know that to you these things are real though, and I understand that as I have beliefs of my own that are hard to acknowledge as otherwise. I can only hope you are able to go through the facts and find the logic flaws that your current state is skipping over. Can I ask what your partners name is, for example?

*safe hugs*

Roiben x

RiverSong · 01-09-2011, 03:47 PM

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Originally Posted by [Opheliac]

Hi im [Opheliac] 's partner. Just to let you know that she's been sectioned.

When i became aware of these issues I tried to talk to her about it and she became very distressed and tried to run away to kill herself 'as it's been writen'. I restrained her and called the police.

She's been given an injection and she's been sleeping since.

Thank you for your support everyone xx

Thank you for the heads up. Keep us updated and i am glad we were here to offer support in time for you to interviene.