So, in my freshman year of high school, I started dating this boy. Everything was fine at first, because he was the only person not bullying me in school. Then, things started to change... If I would hang out with male friends, he would get extremely jealous. Not only would he refuse to talk to me, but he wouldn't look at me either. I hated making him mad, or upset... So I stopped talking to those friends... Luckily, they accepted me back right away after this whole mess..but still. So, then he started talking about how he wanted to lose his virginity. I, however, did not. He sounded so upset at my hesitance, I couldn't help but play along. I never said I wanted to, rather, I changed the subject every time he brought it up... The next time I hung out with him alone, he started kissing me. This was fine, nothing we hadn't done before... Until he started touching me.. It didn't feel good, it just felt wrong.... I tried to say I wasn't sure about it, but he just kept kissing me. He started to get more physical... that's when it started hurting. He would grab at my chest to the point where I would yelp. I told him it hurt, but he said that was normal. Then, he pushed me onto the bed and tore off the clothes covering my waist and below... I started crying, but he told me I shouldn't have made him so "bothered"...that he couldn't resist, and it was my fault. He had me on my stomach, and he started.... I started crying and begging with him, but he just said "Oh you like that?" I shook my head no, but he just kept going. H..He wouldn't let me put my panties back on....I cried all night, and relapsed in S.H again...Everyone said it was my fault, that I was having "buyer's remorse"... Is that true....was it my fault he did that...? I still have night mares...I need advice or something...please?
