Contains sexual abuse - Flash Backs

[Cat.Eat.Soup]

I havent been on here in so long but things have been getting to hard for me.

I keep trying to say to myself move on its over. He is in jail and it wasn't your fault. But it never works. My own mother acts as if she doesn't love me or I'm not important or good enough ever since it happend.

I hurt and I cry but it doesn't do any good. I keep having flashbacks of that night it happened. everything he said everything he did. What if it is my fault. My fault of what happend and why my mother doesn't love me anymore. She doesnt like talking to me or spending time with me. I'm all alone in my dark world. If I said no to him would I be normal would my mother still like talking to me. Its all my fault. I'm no good, I don't diserve anything. My fault...

[keladry]

First of all, it isn't wasn't couldn't be your fault. And we all wish we could decide to get over it and instantly be over it, doesn't work that way though : /

So this thread has some tips for dealing with flashbacks, it can help, I know I was skeptical at first, just keep trying things, you will find something that helps (and even if it only helps a little, that's not nothing, right?)

http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...flashback+help

I'm sorry your mother is not responding in a way you would like her to/a helpful way. Is there someone else you could talk to, like an aunt maybe, youth minister (I only mention that because that's a resource I utilized even though I didn't go to that church because my own mom... anyway), a teacher.

Also: you deserve love, respect and loooots of cuddles. You can turn down the cuddles, the rest are non-negotiable.

[Cat.Eat.Soup]

Thank you <3 and thanks for the link