I had picked myself up for a while but im going down again.
Keith called me a few days ago and it was great talking to him. But at the same time it was heart wrenching. He's doing great in school, all A's and one B. Four more years and he will head off to college.
It's hard to sleep without alot of meds and then it's still a bit hard. I just feel lost yet again. I'm so tired of up and down, etc. I cant end my life...I realized that after the ordeal with my mom's husband, when Keith pushed my head down in the car, afraid I might get shot.
I want to pour all my feelings out on this page but I draw a blank. Everything feels stifled.
Kaleb had diarrhea all night last night. And i almost KNOW its because he eats JUNK all summer at the grandparents and now back in school and he wont eat lunch there. but no one listens to me and i want to bash my head into a wall!!
oh "poor little kaleb" BULLSHIT!! I know that kids are taught how to eat but i have no control. i know its not his fault. I stressed all through kindergarten and 1st grade over this same issue. the kid is anemic. i KNOW i could change this if he came home straight home after school but OH NO..he HAS to go to the grandparents. they feed him supper at 4pm!! that is supposed to sustain him until 9pm??? especially when he doesnt eat at school? and now they are worried because he's losing weight!! I think the stomach upset is due to diet change since he has started school. kelly thinks the same but you cant tell the grandparents. are people REALLY that ignorant???
ALL he will eat for supper is pizza or tacos soooo thats all they feed him!! seriously? hell no!! nothing but grease and cheese. disgusting.
I want him eating over here but they are afraid that we will starve him since we dont cater to his every desire. jesus.
I woke up to kelly screaming and throwing a little fit because SHE didnt want to be up so early to take him to the docs. well..poor,poor kelly.
When Keith was little, he ate okra, carrots, broccoli, lettuce, spaghetti..etc. lots of variety...but not Kaleb, because they GIVE IN!!!
They will be the ultimate factor if this child stays sick all the time, period. We already know he's anemic, doc told kelly that last time. nothing has changed. he has those purple spots under his little eyes and i cant stand looking at them because i know there is a different way!!!
I have no control here. I love a little boy and cant help better his life. im at such a high level of frustration. havent had much sleep and dont expect to today. everything is on my nerves. even my cats are driving me crazy.
I want Keith.I want Keith. I want Keith. I want Keith. I want Keith. I want Keith......
kelly has to have it out with her parents to feed him proper nutritious food or the contact will stop for his health's sake.
its up to her rach, he's not your child. why is he up til 9pm? surely being anaemic must wear him out, he'd be in bed by 7 asleep by 8 with me, mine are usually asleep by 7 (in bed by 6:30) so supper between 4 and 5 is realistic for my two. Like keith mine eat loads of veggies, one mixed into tea and 2 separate portions on the side. Sweetcorn or peas or carrots in the food and brocolli and one of the 3 mentioned on the side. i wasn't taught good eating habits, am making sure my kids learn it whilst they're tiny.
Mand, South Wales, Full-time working, single mother to 2 scarily independent girls.
I AM A PROUD PLUMERIA SISTER
well, he's 7 years old. his bed time up until he was 7 was 8pm.
and he wont eat a damn thing for breakfast that is healthy. i tried this morning. i gave him a banana...he nibbled around it and said he was full. i told him that if that little bit of fruit filled him up, then after he eats at his Nana's, he best not come home saying he's "starving". i told him he would get nothing if he couldnt at least finish the banana this morning.
he started his crying, tears and all...grrrr. then i didnt want him going to school upset, so i PROVED something to kelly. i called him back in the kitchen and asked if he would like a muffin(chocolatechip), and of course, he did. so i said "but i thought you were full". he had no answer for that and ate the damn muffin.
i know he is kelly's child. but i have been here four years now and have watched this child grow, done his homework with him, taught him to read, taught him math, loved him as if he were my own....and damnit this whole eating crap is driving me crazy.
and obviously, im not doing well by any means. i do what i can do and thats it..
i feel like shaving my head again...something of a massive change. i did it the last time while chatting with rowie,lol...it was fun. but kelly will FREAK OUT....but i hate this mop of hair on my head. have i mentioned i HATE being a woman??? and these periods suck ass..which im having right now...blah.
OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
is it absolutely necessary that she (kelly's mother) call every hour or more??? basically saying the same ****ing thing!!!!
im so beyond pissed off at her right now for keeping ALL control over Kaleb. she vents to him like he's an adult. he worries about things all the time. god damn her!! i dont know what will happen to the poor kid....
she needs someone to SMACK her head!!!
i suppose this has become my venting thread now...
hospital bound if **** doesnt change or rather if I cant change my reaction to it.
I think when Kaleb is taken to the doctor you need to to get him to write out a diet plan and say that without it he is going to end up in hospital because of lack of proper nutrition. Or take kelly's parents with you (after you've spoken to the doctor on the phone and explained the situation) and get him to explain it to them. Basically get someone professional to tell them they're ****ing up and actually harming the child!
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
