Seriously - is there medication for this?

[guilty]

I can't get over my guilt on issues that others think are superficial. I can remember specific events from when I was little and when they pop into my head, it literally jolts me and then I feel like scum for days. then there is anything that has happened since. same thing.

I have lived a life of 'er'. no matter what was wrong, how I felt, what I did, or what happened to me, someone else had it 'er', if you get the meaning. As a result, a lot of these things that are tearing me up have never been said out loud. I just can't. Besides, when I did attempt to get help as a teenager, the counsellor just said I was 'overly sensitive' and to get over it. in other words, no matter what, someone else, well, everyone else is always 'er' and I shouldn't waste the time of important people.

something happened last nite. my husband says 'it happened - get over it' but another soul was effected because of me and I can't just let it go. It isn't the worst or the least of my experiences, but it is physically hurting.

I am completely serious in this question: I am not a drug user, but golly there has to be a drug out there that will lower my conscience - even if it is just a little. Just to make me not care about the effects of my actions so much. Just be normal. Does such a thing exist? And if so, what non-related symptoms to I need to give a psyc. to get it?

The reason I ask for the symptoms to report is that for the last 17 years, every time I have gone to a doctor for a physical issue, they tell me to get counciling. Kid you not. When things got so bad I could barely function, I webMd'd specific symptoms just to get doctors to at least run tests in the general vicinity of the complaint areas. This lead to 11 proceedures and surgeries over the course of a year and a half and me being yelled at for not getting medical treatment earlier, before thinggs got so bad. So, I have no confidence, with this current history combined with the one time I tried to get mental help, that if I am honest, anyone will take me seriously.

I need drugs because I can't stop the guilt. Please help.

[PassedExpectations]

i don't know of any meds that will just turn the guilt off. most psychoactive meds dont cure anything anyways, you've got to work to change your thinking patterns and all that as well.

have you tried cognitive behavioral therapy? thats what worked for me for anxiety and guilt thoughts (though mine weren't as bad as you're describing)

[roiben]

I agree with Past Expiration here - There is not a drug that will magically cure a sense of guilt. It sounds like a therapy course such as CBT or DBT may help you though with regards to negative thinking, which guilt is a form of.

If you state that you are interested in dealing with negative thinking, the Dr is more likely to get what you are on about, as this is the generalised term used.

As a final note - It is not a good idea to google symptoms and try to fit them. Psychology is much more complicated than that and the last thing that is needed is for you to end up with a label and treatment that is not at all suited to you.

Roiben x

[effervescence]

Probably CBT and perhaps anxiety medication would be the closest you could get.

[trekkinthrulife]

I think an anxiety medication might be helpful in your case

I tend to perciverate on things I have said/done (even when it truly isn't my fault, but I feel like it is). I understand where you are coming from. There are things from 8th grade that embarrass me or make me feel guilty. I'm going into my third year of college. I try not to think about it, to put the past behind me, because what's done is done. It is a lot easier said than done